In a very secure storge space there is TONS ofKurts stuff.Some thingsmade thier way ( ahem) out of thehouse after his death, i did give 6 guitars away and EACH of them has resurfaced at Hard Rock or in the possession of Billionare collectors.
I love his mother but shes been taken advantage of in my opinion and from now one after our discussion today she will be repped by
proper lawyers by people who approach her for his childhood things so she can maximise her income in these transactions.
IM very dissapointed in the people in the house at the time of Kurts death= Executives and whatnot stealing his vinyl and items, but the most important and bulk of things i am in possession of, although about half of our private snapshots were put on the net- due to a few crooked assts and Brooke from KR who got a whole box of babydoll dresses and a few of Kurts sweaters and never returned them, and fter visting my home snapshotshad simply dissapeared, then again theres the mystery of the Kittyradio.com AMEX wihc charged 758k in 3 months in March 02- two new BMWs were purchased on thatcard and on thatvisit she was driving a new BMW, the mystery shall be solved, there were 17 amesx i was not aware of applied for and money spent, tht 758k was actually FRANCES’S money and i had to pay it all back when we were especially broke, but no matter the FBI are all over it and well find out what happened and who did what at some point/
in any case I am in possession as i said of a veryvery full storaage space full of his guitars amps poetry lyrics hair ( even obviously ill keep some but lots of it it maybe too morbid) theres copies of many lyrics, and casts i had made of his hands,and i dont think the art is for sale atleast not until it is shown in London this year, so the value is made clear.
Ive been approached by several private collectors- and id prefer that to a whole kerfuffle of an auction and scattering to the four winds his very few guitars and sweaters, ( one fetched 140 ,000 pounds t auction s wichis 280 000 dollars) its all organised well and the things from the house wich i broughtto the space for the most part have been assessed by a professional at the very least,40 million dollars, so obviously most will go to charity since the money isnt what im that interested in, but itsreally an exchange of energy- we dont need all of this stuff and other people really want it.
Obviously well keep more than enough of his stuff - hi smonkey collection- thingsthatmattered to him for Franny and her family- butEdward Norton and i had a discussion about this and he thought thiswas thebest idea id had in a long time- move that energy out intothe universe, stop sleepingin his pjs, etc, use the money for good works and good investments.
Theres three billionares interested in purchasing the whole lot, and if they are willing to not attemot to rip the family off as these things will just go up in value, i would be happy to sell it all to the one with the best deal and the best manners towards the energy of the items.
Im not into anyone trying tobargain with me, when the assesment is actually very conservative, and theres quite a few auction houses actually that do this, so the one quoted although im interested in them -there are other options as well.
theres a very large commission to pay, but perhaps - after dealingwith billionares for many years - and the level at wich they some of them try to not pay full value- wich is absurd, this price may seem high but the people who want to sell these things are confidentbecause of the scarcity of his things and the demand that it is a conservtive estimate, Ill be happy to be able to contribute as isaid most of the proceeds to charities and to make some good investments for my daughter.
it really is a mauseleoum and obviously the prices will skyrocket after the biopic and documentaries are done, but im ready to get this burden of all these items and these thingsthat womntmatter to Franny or me off my back, now.
I was approached through a lawyer by another interested collector in Japan today so well see who will just do the deal, take what i dont need or want off my hands and not select this or that, its one lot in thecase of a private collector, nomessing around and no room for negotiation, well im sure a little but not much, theres fart toom uch competition for that, so whomever wants the best collection of his things we no longer need in our world, can have them at a very little price for them.
Otherwise i need to decide between auction houses and wich ones i feel most comfortable with.
Again imdissapointed thatthepeople who were Kurts few freinds sold his guitars without informing me, perhapsit was somethingtheyneeded to do but some of these guitars are stolen.
Producers have approached me about his amps wanting toget that authentic Nirvana sound, etc etc, the demand is huge for thesethingsandhas been for many years, i simply was not meotionally ready to let these things go and if i get messed about i wont sell anything at all until thetim eis right again.
Thi sstory shouldnot have leaked and no auction house should havebeenmentioned but it was, this was to be a private transaction and if not rolled out far differently= but something told in confidence made it into the media, and now i am stuck with it so i felt i should say something about it( the rticle was mostly about my record btw)its a win win situation as long as noone tries to take advantage of us. I will not tolerate that i will simply withdraw the item/s and wait as isaid until the time is right again.
Ive already dealth with one person tryng to negotiate, and i will not be dealing nor will his mother be dealing with that person, i fifnd it shameful when onehas billions of dollars to try to take advantage of someones ignorance about the worth of their own memories or properties.
Havingbeen ripped off massively by lawyers loan officers assts and horrific boyfriends since Kurts death and during Kurts life this will not be happening again.
On the other hand some of these guys seems quite nice and enthusiatic and positive so it should be a win win for all involved with no drama and no nonsense.
justa fast clean interaction where everyone feels good and has a positive expirience from this exchange of energies.
I know of one collector who believes theyhave a guitar of Kurts but it is a fake they were ripped off. the guitars were all accounted for and inventoried. Kurt SIGNED many guitars that does not mean they were actually his.
Anyway i foresee no problems as long as nooone tries to play games here,itis what it is, and in my life noone rips me off ever again. or takes advantage of me. i m afinacially secure and do not need the hassle.
so i expect a very poistive outcome for the charities i have chosen and for family investments, again its justenergy being exchanged money is an energy as much as a sweater or a guitar is an energy.
so thats that.
This is to move foreward in our lives and get on with things and contribute to some very worthy causes that might havehelped Kurt when he was alive ( he was ripped off whil ehe was alive extriridnarily) i have excellent representation and business management now and legal counsel and i did not have these things previously.
so once again this is a win win and i foresee no drama and no pernicousness and a fair and easy trade, there will be no problems here and if there is i will simply withdraw these items until another time.
But i do feel thebesttime is now even though the doc and the movie will push the prices up muchmore than present day, i would liketounburden myself andmy family from all these reminders thatare not keepsakes to us anymore and will never be to my child or her children,
ultim,ately like money its just stuff.
Perople infuse it with value and meaning.
Hope all goes easily and well - problems such as greed will just make sure that i withdraw these items until the right time or person comes along. But i doubtthat will happen.
Sincerely
Courtney

someone mentioned my suspenders i wore yesterday, Kim Stewartpurchasedthem at Barneys in NY, i called them cos she sai dthere was one pair left, nd they didnt kno wwhatiw als talkingabout, i really would love to have a pair and someone mentioned thebrand, could you repeatthat desinger? and if so doyou have any idea wherei can purchase them? i looooove them/
im crispy toast from three days in the desert and am going to crawl into bed with my kid and watch Tivoed House.
i Tivoed “Clatterton” and manyou kno wi wanted to love it but i didntevengetthe plot, mnaybe im being a bitblonde but wa sit about basicallya village of women? i adore Saunders work but i just didnt get it and trust me i get Brit humour more than US humour, but it seemed to go overmyhead, was it supposed to mostly pathos? it just didnt do the trick for me.
im unclear on my UK trip i really dont wanna miss Drews Party i knowitsjuts a party for nan as opposed to aundtioning a band wich is a major prioity but theres a few things coming up wich matter to me socially and i do want a life.
so its either this week or the 20th. ill decide.
Music Business and there was alot of it in thepast two days can be veryverydraining, nd im certianly drained.
Thi sstory brekingtodaydid not help as and i said itwas a story about the RECORD , butthe press ran with the Kurt part i guess, no surpirse there, i saw the writer lastnightand he told me and i warned him after chiding him for repeating asomething wich was basically a rumour at the time, but the media is th emedia and if im not playong anna nicole in a movie im datingbruce willis nd getting gastric surgery.themajority is nonsense that was not total nonsense butto beveryveryveryvery clear ifi get messed with about these precous items i will withdraw from participating in a hot second.
court

on ebay you have to give to one of THIER Charites and my frinds riuna fantastic charoty called Chrysalis that sdels with homelss people and battered women here in LA, so unless i conced to one of thier charities it cant go up with a charity- ive lready comnmite dto Chrysalis LA so i just wnt have a charity blob nextto my stuff.
Someone sent me a post that nutbag former employee who thinks she owns my other website wrote about a nearly 8000 dollar Marc Jacobs dress, Marc sent it to me and personally told me he ha donly made six, iwore it once, idon thinl marc will be upset about this, hes been so supportive, he sent me the entire fall commection when i was in rehab the one with the lame and stuff but i couldnt wear stufftht fashion foreward to court, it would be a bad statement, iwore mostly armani or anthroplogy ( or strapless dresses with a beagle!!!!)
Per Paltrow and Chris i dont want to get too into my personal freindships but she has been an absouloute angel to me for nearly ten years- shes far far hipper than people gv her credit for nd so supportive and nturally an incredible spirtual soul and weve been freinds for as i sia d along time , whebn i was “out sick: avoided everyone but duringthat time she wrote me some beutiful supporrtiv letters and Chris and her gave me a goo dlong list of UK musos for the London audtions./
\shes moral and has gret vaalues ( much like Trudie Styler) and im honoured to be her friend, weve always simply liked each other and texted and called. I wasnt ina pace to commit to a real reciprocal relationship when i was out sick , but iam now, its great to reconnect imn going on a sort of double date thing with Drew to a party next week- nd reconnecting with DB has also been wonderful its about catchingup to eahc otheres rythym fter being displaced for so long.
and effirt has to be put into any friendship esp one wich suffered a diconect, but its all good, ive been friends with Crusie since Vanilla Sky and i like him very much. beyond that i dont feel like diuvulging anythingelse personal on that level.
My friend is djing right now so i have to get off my ass and go support her and Mr Penn is coming out with us( were very brither sister nothing else) whom i adore and understands my dark side really really well having gone through it himself, nd havinghis own demons. yeh i adore him , love him even, as a freind, so im tryinghto find this dolce macrame dress wich is a littl erisque but will work with right lingerie.
and i have the insane mcqueen kinky heigth betty page booties i thibnk im going of rthat or a westwood pencil skirt an djacket or maybe fuck it a rck owens tshirt dress. someone made off with my rick owens beige leather jacket with the wool ribbing im pissed, ima huge rick collector,
anyway about that nutbag knocking the clothes on ebay its foolish its jealoua and hse knows within the month the site willbe abck in my name as will her registrations illegally of my name Kurts name and Francess name as wellas selling merchandise on Kurts site. theres a EDERAL LAW against that but shes fond of thibnking shes smarterthn others and hacking her own site to claim she lost the data and selling”fine goods :”on ebay and claoming things aare hers wich are not by law and by ethics.
If she has a problem with Marcs handbeaded Couture dress wich is also mostly handsewn she can tell Marc how bad it “sucks” the first barrage of stuff is worth 3-10k, it will go down from there, but i will make it very clear here an dnow it wont have an ebay charity blob mext to it= i hve my charity that Rebcca Gayheart and Brett Ratner and Heather Perry all close friends need clothes an dprofiuts and at least 10 percent will go to them. its silly policy but i dont need the money so maybe some peiple say things go to charity and then dont deliver wich would explain thier policy, the stuff will be back up asap,. but of reseve prices are not met i wont sell them, illhve a “couture garage sale a”: at ahotel in la insead, whena nearly 8000 dollar De La Renta went for 1000 i decided that was just giving a very very epensive wardrobe away wich is bad for the achairtya nd the money is to be collected for one thing me and Frances want wich is secret.
So obviously ill gicve Chrsyalis 10-30 percent of the porceeds as well as the other clothes desperatly needed by these women.
and in thi s new wardrobe ill be smarter- i hacve mano;as never worn wich is just absurd, im going to inly buythings i know i would wear that day. unless its evenongand im beginningto get the higher end evening for free again wich is wfully nice, does anyone kbnopw teh exact week of teh Prais Couture?
as for that nutbag just ognore her she comes from a place of poison and animality hate hell and anger. feel sorry for her, ive been sent dozens of her IMs and the things she says privately are so full of bile an dhate it sno wonder she spread tha to what used to be a fun good popular site. But Karma is Karma and cause and affect is what it is, i have faith in my lywrs Nirvanas lawyers and Frances’s ;awyers a;; who are infuriated at the things hse has said and done,
whats funnya bout peo[le whop are full of poison is that they often make”cyber friends:” who liek clockwork send to the lawyers or to me her private statements, not just about me about everything, i pray sincerely for her to get well every day, [erhps she will , biut her obsession with me has taken over her whole lifem to the point where she annoucnes in her google “This iste has nothingto do wuth CL” andthats basically ALL irthas to do with or why nyone goes there,
she has tried to hacvk this site numerous times,. because poison toxic people cannot deal with positivy even on this sweet sophomoric little site- our designer Naveen has done some of the most succesful sites ever including Maddonnas, hes alsoa tech genius and his firewalls are insurmoutable.
of course we all feel mutually violated Krist Dave Frances Me and our counsel by her ten years sneakily running Kurtcobain.com erratyicallya bnd making a mint off it, we have the specs and the merch company she used so a bsic numebr of how many tshirts she had made and sold at 100 percent profit over the last ten years, gee i wonder what she was plannomng to piut up on FrancesBeanCobain.com?
probably thought of it as an investment.
well i sincerely hope she gets better but justice must be served and dont wrry aboiut that naff site, its nothing, i get sent her IMs and P{rivate emails from her “freinds:” who want o do whats right full of bile and theres amassive amount fo evidence that she is a common thief but its actually called Grand L:arceny and Mail Fraud……..enoiugh of her-= ccountabilty willcome in a legal and faifr mnner an dthen perhaps she can woprk on her obsessions and mental illness. In the meantime those of you sending me the IMs and PM and Emails Thankl you, or listening to your conscience- we didnt need them we already hd the facts bit tio see how boistrous and belligerent she is about crimes she comitted shows us all how ill she is.
didnt mnen to give her this much attention - i simply want her ourt of my life- shes comiiteed enough terrible traansgressions against my family with no comunction or conscience and its rather upsetting.
gonna go sage the room and cleanse myszelf of her now- thes eemails you guys from KR and other sites or whatever of hers send me i send onto the legal team but they meake me feel dirtry to see someone ins uch pain an dthat sick.
its truly sad bit uts like begging to go to jail, nd i don tghnk she comprehends the reality of that becaius elie any sociopath she believes she above the law in every way.
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gotte dress fast this post took longer than i thought= fo i really wanna wear a suit? westowood i knwp am i really in the mood? i cant find this dammed dolce……..mayebe a high high waisted chloe skirt with a chloe top[ oh wait ! my favourite thing
Mcqueen sent this amazing skirt with supenders all done in dimanate= its super sexy and different maybe thaat or fuck it skinny jenas ( even though bells are the new thing) and a cute rick owens t………ill live, my wardrobe is so much smaller though! ll those 8s gone cept for the dolce 8s wich may as well be 2s.
okay gotta go
CourtsXXXX

im very busy planning on strategy on how to get this record out and when exactly - getting the mixing done and thats foin to be a whole process as LP may do the mixing, and getting a band together so i cn play these June shows in London NY and LA depending in how that goes i may go to Manchester Toronto Chicago- i want to see how these songs play in a small venue and i want the industry guys to be ble to see me live and feel the vibe of this record and yeah i may play some catalogue but mostly im planning in playing new songs and seeing how tht goes witha small (4-600) crowd, so im pretty busy with that- i saw Chris Martin tonight and hes lovely he was with Simon Pegg they had had a screening of “Hot Fuzz” t CA A ( a biga gency)
i also had someone try to hck my computer with a virus today a crazed person- it wa sinitlaly propesed as blackmail and i racked my brain nd figured theres utterly nothing ive done that cosme one could have photographs of that re controversial so they sent “attachments” wich i was smart enough to send to an IT guy and found out they were worms and viruses, i only kno wthree people or types of people crazy enough to do so, including the KR crazies, the KR webmistress employee and one other person - noone else in my life is un integrated as a human enough to do something so venal, anyway, thats that and its been haded off to the appropirate people, my dear friend Lisa Mporish is staying with me and i love her she just go ther from th eUK nd last night with Brett was a hoot, his Newton Doc is amazing and sexy and timed just righta nd i ended up with two Hillywood legends at a table at Mr CXhows listening withawe to amazing old Hollywood stories last night- really cool expirience, anyway, thats my story i hvent been t o post much cos im biusy nd also im sick and tire do fgetting quoted off this site in the mainstream press so illtry nd keep it conservative, other wise my Publicist cabnot do his job.
anyway its time fo rme to sleep i had a lovely evening although i sort of accidently ended upa ta sucide girls magazine lauch party on the eastside and it was just people asking me fo rpictures for thne 5 minutes i stayed there, itw as wierd i just met a friend Sierra there, nd spklit and gopt mobbed by god knows who, it was an odd vibe, too far east la for me i cant go past doheny or i start to feel fucked mybe im just a beverly hills mom housewife who likes to tour - wich i cannot wait to do,
i seriously feel like a caged lion whos ebeen in her cge waaaY Too long but i need to clean up this old reputation and these guys all love the record but i need themt o see im not off the rils anymoreand im too old and to ovin and too proud to ever let that happen again, im integrated now and like all of uis m a special child of the universe- chanted witha very cool buddhist today who i met last night- very very famous dps wife she was gret great diamoku. i see these pics and something must be wrongw ith me co si know what i wweigh and i still dont feel quite thin enough, im gonn go for tewn more pounds and then ill mainatin at that imd oing weight training and pilates and more tough stuff so ic an tone more, you lose this much weighta nd get saggy skina nd im in no mood for saggy anything thank you very much sdo i need ot firm up and get my butt in shape and tummy and arms, and fdo the heavy lifting - the hardest part the first 50 pounds is over- now i just gotta put the w3ork in to get where i wanna be-= but i m a rockstar and my job isnt to be perfect - in fact he addictiont o the idea opf “perfection” has infested my life in the past and im over it- its never thnk god infected my music but its affected my outeard appearance and self esteem and i need to know that as long a s ido somnething fo rsomeone else every day as longa s my duty ist o make others less miserable in fct helo them to be happy=- by what we call “kosenrufu: ” wich means world peace - and value creation wherever we go( nichiren buddhists) its so important to be of service to others , so very very important for purely selfish reasons- one gets more from the universe the more ones heart is opne and all that stuff.
anyway i really go that today and im really determined to be a sopurce of strengtha nd inspiration to anyone whose really been to the bottom of hell and lived ot tell and come back again as an integrated whole person who celebrates my own flaws and is non judegmental of others wounds or craziness, its just sadness and grudges contempt and jealousy , its just pain, and no matter how villified or persecured i get i feellike “What? that was NOTHING!” and get back up againb and diust off and march foreward to enlightenment in this lifetime.
bless you all and i hope you find fith serenity and peace as ssoon as possible = it is possible to have whatever you want n dneed as longa syopua ccept that you habvve created every aspect of your circ umstance wether througfh karma in this life or another- sn dthat you ande only you can nchange that that noobne is a victim ( except real victims of reaL crimes) anyoen can save themselves bo matter how dark and bad it gets there is alway sxlove and self love and love of humanity is the most precious things i can think of it allow syout olove others as ypud o yourself so i say to my hacker- your a wounded soul, and i deeply feel fopr you and chant that your wound heals.
sincerley and blessings on all your houses.
Court

id relly liketo red this review of my kiddie diary let lone get it back, i spill ;pt opf stuff i went to the hed of studios house universls intsd and sw gwyneth nd appke and hse just texted me ho wmuch she liked my record, i rel;ly get long with her i kno wwere n unlikely pir n some wys buts hes very hip nd i was so very ghappy tos ee her, i sawe lot of people and could namedrop kk day biut reconnecting with Drew the other night and with gwyn ment alot to me bot ghose girls hve been gret to me and wev all had adventures and i really though Apple was so cute, we had lovely cht nd reconnect nd obviously i wont write the details of wht we spel of or spoke of but we hve a good girl dinne rplanned this week, in twop weeks i go to the uk to getmy band, and that ought to be very excitibng lopt of guy slready lined up and awesome drummers im gonn have my pick of the litter and cnt wait to come up with brillint namd an dstrt playing out- my lbel deal is tkingf orver and ever still obviously fall release but its juts getting the tools so tht this cn be wht it should be wich is my best record wihc seems to be the consensus one guy didnt like it as much lthough he sid it ws cxommercially a
:hiy” he wnted me screming more=- id be on aplne tomorrow if it wansxt for a houseguest conming from the uk for two weeks, wich oughtto keep me busy in good ay ift ht person behaves and keeps low profile we should hve fiun two weeks, but id rtherseee them in london but the pkans were made and so here they come.
Russellls entered [aradise he cant belive hwaii he keeps textingme how estruck ne is im so hppya nd proud for him think wht you wnt about russell but he doesnt have mean bone in his body
the gossip were really cute i went walking out with the mosser and we got papped like crazy nd rn back inside but i sae pics of her with beth ditto later i left early i didnt wantt o stry up lte nd do ll that stuff is we tgghem didnt need to meet them they were adorable and its great to sdee big big girl in her own skin so comnfotable and so charistmntic, m me a little envious of her confort level, but i do enjoy wering fours, it make sthe whole wardoropbe for these shows in doing in secret in summer so emuch easier to dress and ican go for a more ndrogynous feel and shorter hair and get rid of this barbie la thing, drker bopldbne im thinking, bnd cute brit guys who can ply lik eklllers its gonna be awesome= i jave a redy to mix record an dthree songs are being moxed this week so progress is being made, n dthis deal willclose within the month or so= but o d still prefer to play small shows t small venuies and see how the new songs go down live i belive radiohead did the same thing stheres some songs that didnt mke thne record and id like to try out allthe songs and see how they work.
so far im planning london nyc n dla maybe illadd a fe wother secret shows but thats all i need for now, if we can do two nights we will. this should be well 2 weeks fronnow i got o the uk itlltake me a week of auditioning and then bring em back here nd practice 30=40 days til were so tight tight tight, watertight and jammy too, i know how i wntthis to sound nd the drummer is so key i cant use my drummer from teh record s hes lindas, also watch out for linda solo shows i my just turn up t those………one never lnows.
so thats my news, i ahd great ester day in malibu wentto a big execs party the pres of universal and then to sting an dtrudies if i could bottle that womn and give you allher sidon the world would just be a better plavceshes changed my whole life how i et exercise think about others- shes just dmmed saint.
so im in alot of dinner and meetings this nexttwo weeks olus extr curriculer stuff t home wich ought to be uh…fun. and then i gop to get my band,.
hope your sogning up for my my space as were gonna tioe this site when its up and proper to the myu space too….its complex tech talk but its new thing and i love being the first on thenet to do somethin g unfortyntely my lst employee refused to listen to my ideas but after all the shit she did to me registeringa nd sellingstuff on jkurtcobin,com nd frncesbencobin.com nd just being nansty bad toxic person i hope she gets healed from her rge nd hgate nd is out of my life soon but im assured tht is a priority and willhappen nd that troll site will be sdown within themonth so im glad of that.
just be gone, you know? its over, boring i hvbent looked tthats site for bout ehat six months or sobut inm sire nothinsg chnged bd ads and the same obsessive evil people moxed with cool fans who dont know where thefcuk they are.
sorry fo rteh scrolling wrer just throwingthe site up any day, n ditll be moramlwith forums i may ask subscirotionf ee it fan go to charity but i dont thin ktrolls weoll pay and then my blogging can be mor eintimate and coola bnd hinest and we cn actually talk like 5 bucks i think is plenty but it keeps the creeps out .lots love
courtney

Wednesday

Current mood: amused

so sorry bout moonwashed rose.com- we're just waiting on this internet genius who has a very complicated but smart thing hes going to do for us. the temprorary solution we decided to go with is juliets (the webmistress) original plan and use her servers until the genius is done with his. my space mwr.com connection which voids ads somehow - its very confusing but we're just gonna throw the cl.com up. this isnt the finished product but at least it will look like a real webpage.
saw teh Gossip [as i said i got tired and wanted to go sleep plus im mom so i went home early.]
i didnt end up going to Liz's after all i went to the pres of Universals annual big easter party 200 adults and about 100 little kids, it was fun i got to reconnect to old friends and talk to the actor i think is playing Kurt in the movie, i think. no ones made any deals yet we dont even have first draft yet but theyre very eager to make it, whoever it is im making it with and i dont want to say that till that deal closes but theyre all great and after that and seeing some old friends in that business i went to Sting and Trudies for thier daughters birthday and i always get such wisdom from both of them.
Sting told me i should NOT pursue this major label deal and that if he could trade with me he;d be set for life ( ummm i think he is anyway) but talked about the new ways things are going and how record companies will probably be obsolete in two years and its just all about live and the net due to the free downloading from korean & russian sites.
and then we ate the finest macro food in the world, i gotta get to my cigs and coffee at some point but im plateauing and i just need to lose five more pounds
ive liquidated my closet for ebay- all those size 8s and 6s gone. big portion of the proceeds will go to the rape center in santa monica, my closet looks empty and i had an exquisite wardrobe, they went for the dolce and fendi and versace and all that stuff first ( i held onto my oscar dress) and tons of shoes id out grown - when you lose weight your feet lose half size. no one told me that....ring finger too , tho my bling level is at all time low.
im getting for lindas bday a very very special guitar- i think its worth tons to me in sentimental value and also a ton in actual money, and my biz managers are having a fit, i dont wanna say exactly what it is, but it shows linda who collects guitars how much i value her and look when you find out who shes producing next - the ultimate cute punk boy band shes really smashed the glass ceiling and ive loved and played with those guys for years and it wil lsound great on their record too.
watch out for linda perry shows you never know who might turn up.
i have house guests or i'd be on a plane to London to try to put all these musos to work and bring em back home and do a forty day rehersal with em til we're so tight tight tight and play secret shows in London LA and NY this summer. well in about 60 days ill be doing this, small venues to see how the new material goes down and if theres things in the album that dont work and work live before we support a bigger band or tour alone.
im doing well with my major its jsut very very slow. i cant have a bad deal whats the point i may as well put it out alone and just get distribution system. i think this will help kids see the new songs and decide by audience reaction what they like.
okay well im gonna finish liquidating my clothes til im down to 4s only, its real empty in there and im not going back and this ebay sale will take a week or two till all or some of the stuff is up. its all couture or high end stuff mostly. i didnt part with my old baby dolls. you dont get a fortune on ebay unless you use your name which im happy to do since im basically splitting the proceeds with a charity but im never going back to that weight again so most of my clothes look maternity on me. i still have to get toned and ive been working on that every day ive been back from tokyo.
hope you have great day.
im dying for this record to come out to and it irrelevant cos im just gonna go play anyway. just not festivals and tv shows where you need something to sell.
then ill do major media blitz : the oprahs and all that stuff but for now i guess the papers will review it but thats it.
and the punters will show which im very glad for. if industry fucks show i think they come second to the fans.
okay sweeties there went my valentino boots with the brown bow on the side.....boo hoo.
love
courtney
ps i did not have any tummy tuck gastric anything the negs are now saying i had. i was disciplined and had a goal in mind i;m very responsible with my kyo green and flax seed oil and have great longevity and my drs prescribes natural hormones its not like im anorexic im just a size four for gods ske, for sample size id have to keep going and im five pounds from my goal but my ribs and shoulders will always prevent me from being a child woman. thanks tyler for the edit.

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TYLER MY FABULOUS MOD AT WWW.MOONWASHEDROSE.COM PUT THIS SITE TOGETHER, IF YOU WANT TO SEE MY DAILY RANT AND RAVES YOUVE GOTTA GO THERE , EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT THE BEST SITE IN THE WORLD YET FORMAT WISE YOU GOTTA SCROLL A BIT WE ARE WORKING HARD AND MAKING IT COURTNEYLOVE.COM BY NEXT MONTH.
IM GOING TO THE UK TO FIND MUSOS FOR MY BAND, I THINK BROTIHS GUYS ARE JUST GONNA BE MORE SOPHISTICATED MUSICALLY AND NOT ABOUT THE MONEY, AT ALL, I HAVE SOME REALLY HIGH END INDIE BOYS HELPING ME WITH THE BEST DRUMMERS AND ETC SO IT WONT BE A BAD BAND ( NO OFFENSE TO THEM MEERS BUT I WAS A BAND BAND) LIKE THE OTHER LAST ONE WAS. IN FACT IT BETTER BE AS GOOD AS CRAZY HORSE OR I RETIRE,
WE ARE LOOKING AT A DEFINITE FALL RELEASE, THE I'S AND T'S NEED TO BE CROSSED AND THEN WE'LL HAVE AN ALBUM DEAL AND I'D POST MORE LYRICS AND STUFF BUT I WANT THIS TO BE SHINY AND NEW TO ALL OF YOU WHEN IT HITS AND I WANT IT TO JUST BE SOMETHING YOU ANTICIPATE, IM HAVING FANTASIES OF CINDERELLA TRYING TO GET INTO HER GLASS SLIPPER IT NOT FITTING AND HER FORCING IT AND SOMEHOW SMASHED GLASS AND FOOT BLOOD, I SEE WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT CLEARLY BUT YOULL SEE WHEN IT COMES FROM MY HEAD TO THE TERRA FIRMA.
THERES ALOT OF FAKE ME'S ON MY SPACE THIS IS THE REAL ME, SO I WANT TO PARTICIPATE IN THIS MY SPACE THING BUT IF YOU WANNA HEAR THE MUSIC THAT IVE ALREADY LET LEAK A LITTLE UNMIXED AND RAW YOU GOTTA GO TO WWW.MOONWASHEDROSE.COM AND NO TROLLS, WE DONT ALLOW NASTINESS ON THAT SITE OR HERE. IF YOU WANNA PARTICIPATE IN A POSITIVE COMMUNITY THEN GO THERE IF YOU WANNA SLAM ME AND SHIT THERES PLENTY OF SHITTY SITES FOR THAT ACTIVITY. THIS IS MY SPACE THAT HE MADE FOR ME BECAUSE I CAN BARELY HANDLE E-MAIL SO WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE 'YES ITS FUCKING ME MOTHERFUCKERS' IN MY TITLE? ITS NOT SO HARD TO BELIEVE.
I MADE UP WITH DREW AFTER A LONG TIME AND IM SO HAPPY I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND SHE LOVES ME AND ITS ALL GOOD, AND I WENT SHOPPING WITH THE MOSSER COS SHES GETTING HER TOPSHOP LINE TOGETHER, I WANT A CLOTHING LINE, NOW THAT I'VE FINALLY LOST THE WEIGHT AND SHIT WILL FIT ME MAYBE I CAN GAIN SOME FASHIONISTA TRUST BACK OR MAYBE NOT. ACTUALLY I DONT CARE AS LONG AS I FEEL GOOD ABOUT HOW I LOOK AND I DIDNT FOR A LONG TIME UNTIL I WENT ON THIS DIET, BUT I NOW NEED TO TONE IT, I GOT TO SIZE FOUR BUT I NEED JUST 5 MORE POUNDS AND ITS NOT BUDGING, NO ONE CARES ABOUT MY DAMNED DIET BUT HEY ITS MY BLOG,
I FAINTED THOUGH , MY FIRST FAINT IN MY LIFE, I KNOW I'M EATING HEALTHY BUT REALLY LOW CALORIES AND NOT ENOUGH SALT APPARENTLY. I WAS DEHYDRATED, AND THE DRS HAD TO COME OVER AND GIVE ME AN IV OF SALINE TIL I GOT A FEW LITRES IN THERE, FAINTING IS SCARY I WAS LOOKING FOR DREWS BLACKBERRY AND HAD JUMPED OUT OF BED AND I DIDNT WANT ANY DRAMA SO I RECALL LOSING CONSCIOUSNESS FOR JUST A SECOND BUT MY BLOOD PRESSURE WAS SO DAMNED LOW ITS LIKE I HAVE THE BLOOD PRESSURE OF A REPTILE WHICH IS GOOD ITS A SIGN OF LONGEVITY, BUT THIS WAS SO LOW PEOPLE CROAK THIS LOW, SO IM TRYING TO PUT SALT ON MY FISH AND VEG AT NIGHT.
I WENT OUT WITH MY MOVIE PARTNERS LAST NIGHT AND INVITED RUSSELL BRAND WHOSE ALL GETTING READY FOR HIS FIRST BIG PART IN A BIG HOLLYWOOD MOVIE AND HES GOING TO BE FINE HES A LITTLE NERVOUS BUT HES A VERY AMBITIOUS BOY AND HE CHARMED THE WHOLE TABLE SAY WHAT YOU WILL ABOUT RUSSELL BRAND BUT HES GOT THE BEST HEART AND IS A GREAT HUMAN BEING AND DOESNT HAVE A MEAN BONE IN HIS BODY AND I ADORE HIM, I SUDDENLY MADE FRIENDS WITH ALL THESE UK COMEDIANS AND OUT OF THEM THERES THREE I REALLY LOVE AS FRIENDS. NOEL FROM THE MIGHTYBOOSH MATT LUCAS FROM LITTLE BRITAIN WHO IS A DIAMOND OF A HUMAN, HES SO LOVELY AND LOVELY RUSSELL, I DONT KNOW WHY I HAVENT BEEN CLOSE TO MUSICIANS STIPE AS ALWAYS AND I'VE MADE SEMI OK EMAIL FRIENDS WITH GERARD AND FEEL LIKE IF MCR CAN SELL OUT WEMBLEY THEN ROCK IS ALIVE AND THRIVING AT LEAST IN THE UK COS THEY PLAYED HOUSE OF BLUES HERE, I THINK IT WAS A FUZE THING, ANYWAY WELCOME TO ALL YOU MY SPACE PEOPLE! AND I 'M GOING TO LIZ TAYLORS ANNUAL EASTER EGG CRAZY FREAK PETTING ZOO TOMORROW THERES MONETS AND MANETS AND MODIGLIANIS AND PICASSOS BUT SHE TAKES LIKE 8 HOURS TO COME DOWNSTAIRS LAST YEAR ME AND A FRIEND WHOSE CLOSE TO HER THROUGH LIFE STUFF SNUCK UPSTAIRS COS WE GOT SO TIRED OF WAITING FOR DAME ELIZABETH AND I THOUGHT THIS IS SOOOOO NOT WORTH IT BUT AS YOU PASS THE WARHOL OF HER ON THE WAY UPSTAIRS YOU GET THE SHIVERS. THAT WOMAN HAD A HELLUVA RIDE AND A HELLUVA LIFE.
ANYWAY I THINK THATS WHAT IM DOING FOR EASTER. IM BUDDHIST SO EASTER DOESNT MEAN ALOT TO ME.
I HAVENT BEEN PLAYING OR WRITING COS IM DONE.
JUST WAITING TO GET MY BAND AND MIX AND SIGN THE DEAL.
SO THATS MY STORY, AND IM STICKING TO IT WELCOME ALL!
xcourtney