ibve never MET Peter Dohertty! Ive never spoken to Pete - No wait i did once on t he phone, aboput rehabs, PETE DOHERTY? OMG it must be a slopw news week- whata sad kid and needs help so much and sure id help himn but im DATING himn! i dont KNOW the guy!!!!!!
as for that drummer well hes hit on me so many times hes justa very v ery conflicted guy about me wich is why he continually writes songs about me to hear he "hates" me mor ethan "anyone else" is just amUsing- Kurt loathed HIM more than anyone else ( except a journalist) in his will he made a codicile that Grohl was no longer a member of Nirvana. i just ignored the guy and willcontinue to
Dave knows this, an d he takes it out on me! Hey it wasnt MY band and it wasnt MY idea!
its funny he "hates" me since i dont thin k about him - hes just sub mediocre kind of a cokehead who does this "niceguy" nonsense. theres isnt a eword he could he say that would riuffle my feathers, honestly.ANYWAY whata fun fabulous special evening!
i had a truly fabulius night lots of Lords and Ladies and Quentin ( Tarantino) who is just the best , and whow aas ispeaking of as being a loyal scorpio? oh yeah Rick Owens the designer - who the hell said this ewas Doherty? idont KNOW Pete ! Kate would kick my ass if this was trtue - she took out thios little silver bag tonight and i was shocked ( cos i recvognised it frm years back long long timne ago)
by how long weve known easc h other she wa sthe first model i ever made friends with about ten years ago maybe more now- weve had alot of adventure stogether and it was nic eto just smoke a few ciggies and be mellow and watch her world far more than mine go by,
we both wear P{enhaglions Bluebell its so lovely a lovely bluebell mist - i even wear it to bed - you can get it online but the Wynn is the one plac ein US iknow youc anget Bluebell- that Wynns cool-= i loathe vegas but i gotta say the stores at the wynn havethe most unique stuff i am obsessed with this diutch lingerie designer malie dekkers
i met a girl paula morgan who makes art out of roadkill and its gorgously sick and im defintly ingterested inb b uying some it sounds vile but its beautiful she finds dead aninals and then makes them beaiutiful again , i cant explain why this moved me but i thought it was deathly cool and i met a bespoke underwear mistress who makes lace herself an dmakes alot of Dita Von Teeses fabulous corsets and uses Couture laces and her name was Venda and shes defintly gettinga call from me too-= and i met the other night not here tonoght the lovely Mcqueen like a lovely sweet vulbnerable bear- if these people are "bitchy" i havent really seen it, theyre all sweet to me - i do think of what they do as art its a way of expressing ourselves. and to have the great honour to wear siuch an amazing piece as i did tonigh t theres even Coulottes cut in goergette on the inner draping, this dresswas made for a Couture model and for some reason they have smaller frames than even me skinny - just bones-its thyroid mostly i know they art eused ti make us feel wierd about our average weight etc so i get conflicted by all this luxury- but fuck it- im gonna have fun while the sun shines and just put in more than i get out, just keep ahea dof the eight ball in terms of charity and philanthropy. and then i can feel the enitre magical couture feeling, guilt free..l.......oh wow i wish i could descirbe to you th edifferecne just a dress can make to your esteem your feelings your posture stature it was all very 1859 in side there iwas like "wheres the laudunum morphine super strong!) and with major blush Laboutins- that were so high and pointy - but this lovely cream
Ive dicovered a Jasopanese Designer i LOVE Suzuki Takayuki- its all creamy whites and ivories and ruffs and twists,
check out his Tokyo fallcollection all i know is that he is very very young and this is earl,y days for him and hes showing so much potential- i get so inspired sometmnes bu the sartorial senses sated that it soumnds riduclous but i end up writing songs all night-
ahhhhhl....okay
im dazzled by whata golden fun evenin g i had what a gorgoues couture gown i was wearing what lovely philanthropical compassionaqte people i met the & also sticking with me from dinner not tonight but last night-
..is the sweetness of Gwyneth "Goddess" Paltrow whose m aybe the nicest person on this earth, ( other than Trudie Styler well i have a pretty long list these days but those two are simply outstanding humnan beings in way most of us just aspire to be)
whats outside is not even a clue of how compassionate , loyal and cool she is inside- i know, i know its sick- someone that beuatiful could be even MORE beautiful spiritually and with such a goldfen heart inside- even more by about ten times- i used to glower at her glow iwa stotally jealous of it i realize now and im rarely ever jealous- but ive realised in the last year how great and abundant a human being she is, always puttin g other s before her- never making the quote "wrong move" cos shes got amazin g clarity, hardcore intellect by such a long shot that i dont think shes given credit for- social awareness, perfect balance wihc she works hard to achieve and crytsal intuition and just hasnt crashed and burned and wont- man i love/ adore that girl- sorry to get sappy/ namedroppy but i cant express a l;ittle4 negativity/boredom/bleh /bemusement at these people who just MAKE SHIT UP ABOUT ME, and how utterly miserable they are wich is what they seem to all have a common,is a deep self loathing yet the people at the top of thie rgame seem to have unlimited self esteem wichg leaves so much more room for the Law of the Universe.i could have a pity party at the way the blogbloids perceive me an dthe people who are so lopwend they just kick me an dthey are doin g it co s i gues stheymiust think im down?
WOW!
im so NOT down thats the irony -
I couldnbt be more UP@!!!!!! God! i have so much positve an dlovely in my life now sweet little secret romances and lovely things- and people and a kid who is a brainaic but cool and beautiful and OMG! so socially adept! heh, i love that!
i willno longer tolerate toxic people abusive people or liars in my world or life whereas i used to- i couldnt be more productive or busy and i couldnt feel better about the future and as of today my team for the future- ia dore all of them and they seem to really believe in me and no way in HELL could i pull off this herculean effort - imagine 100 sit ups twice /three a day!!!! Without that positive energy behind me from very powerful souls. - but its haaaaaarrrd- imasgine that many oblique crunches a day even- this
is what it feels like some times of
mixing this record doing the art and going back for the LAST SESSION with Goddess of my World Linda Perry another human being who is wildly amazingly succesful....an is empathic compassionate and has a heart of gold an dmy best interests at heart always and works so hard on this record and treats me with dignity and respect wich i know i deserve , and i deserve no less, thats a tough one to figure out,
but youve gotta if you wanna activate the Laws odf attractiona nd cause and effect ina positive eway take no shit from anyone and people have abused this imgiinary image persona that i "take no shit from anyone " in the past to truly hurt me-
and what do all these truly succesful people have in common- from Bono Drew Stipe my lawyer and partner Howard my yoda and friend Alan- Woody- Edward/ Bennett/ Marc Jacobs./ Testino/ Lachapelle/ Brett(Ratner)? Cameron, Lagerfeld? THEY ARE ALL REALLY GENUINLeY NICE GOOD PEOPLE
I DONT KNOW ONE PERSON IN THE RAREFIED AIR OF THAT LEVEL OF SUCCESS WHO IS MEDIOCRE OR MEAN SPIRITED OR LESS THAN WISE!@ OR a DICK!!!
i don t mean some reality show / crap music judge/ festival booker or some mediocre self loathing drug abusing nasty little man with sexually conflicted feelings for me wich hes expressed more than once in =his heavy breathing monster jocko way - i mean TRULY succesful at life at family at love at self love- have in common-= they lovethemselves , have un limited self esteem wicch putds them in th eposition to put others happiness beftore thier own-
the V and A museaum is beuatiful and i was honoured to be there i met the Fabulous an dv ery charistmaticf and beaiutiful Amanda Herlech ( sic) and had a surreal slow strange in tandem walk with the editrix of American Vogue who people always slam becaiuse she has so much power in fashion, but i saw whata vulnerable woman she was tonight just by her energy and felt bad - shes also a soft ..asking when people tell me the latest nonsense from the blogoids- so much shit- some stated as fact and some people
just cheesy people id not really get caught dead with they are so toxic and i feel they aqre in so much animality an dhunger aqn dhell they really need help
slagging mne for no appranert reason....i mm at a loss as to why but i guess that lower end oft the herd doesnt know me and doesnt know what to do with me so they just go negative an dprint uglypics an dphotoshop them, and they just dont know what to do with me - its takes a tough skin to not have a pity party about it but god/ buddha /dna gave me bionic bootstraps and im not going anywhere- im swingin from the trees blazin and itll be such fun! i suppose
nooone understands the mixing/ finishing/ cover art band bonding moment it takes on the eve ( give or take a few months) of a CD youve worked on harder an d purer than anythinmg else youve ever worked on - so i guess im in this void without much context what do thes epeoples hateful comments have to do with my world? Nothing.
At my worst i would never give drugs to a 15 year old( i believe he was 18 at this time shes speaking of actually) but i CAN say without getting too far into it-= that the kid did give me pills from his dads massive stash, if his mother honestly believes that 7 year old hooey - hed better clear it up i would imagine,
cos the Universe notices EVERYTHING WE DO , every thougfht word and deed, BUT im 90% sure her and Grohl know they are spewingNonsense - know they ar ebearing false witness and its just my karma-= i wish i hadnt been goaded in to sayin g something totally true about a tabloid star Brit comedy person
-i do not make it a policy to comment to tabloids- or even to "clear things up"
business- this latest round of bloid/blog retarded photoshoppinga nd i must say these FOOLISH people thinking NOW is a great time to kick me with - Christ at least tell the truth= dont Llie!!!!
i just snapped im not perfect it would have been better to just talk to friends ofrfriends but i had been doingthat= anyway im not tablpoid sally and certainly itw asnt said oyt of vin dictiveness- or bithcinness it juist happens to be true that some people need to get well , szome people are truly truly sick , i certianly was no saint - in some different areas than that= in other words its a long asssed story and forget it!
5000 rows of heandsewn ruching with seed pearls imbedded in it- the way the sequins and pellets laid down the references to animality and whats undrneath skin the cerebral nature of Givenchy now, How much pressure there is to run a house not only must you think of Spring Fall Couture- Cruise Resort Pre Fall with hundreds of pieces shoes,accesoires , coats , pants, dresses and every piece must be GREAT
have a dialect in every department
but you must also be a steward of the perfume and the sunglasses and the underwear an dthe jeans and things p[eople can afford and you mnust rebrand the place after many many years of some sor tof neglect - i Locve Riccardo his Couture show =changed the way i saw things was like takinga powerful mind altering permanent hallucingen -= it was art truly truly art.
the way the drapes laid down was amazing - it was such an honour to bethere-such an honour to be wearing true couture and to be supporting this genius- he says im his "muse" or one of them apperently !i love that ! i mean what a delight! a treat!
in my dorky litle skteches ive been doing of things i wish existed i realise how little i know even though ive studied fashion as muchas cinema or music, littl ethings pop up when im ripping thru ten years of "Collezion" the fabrics opf lacroix
i FINALLY getthe genius of Gaultier- and smaller things like Vera Wang is really acool designer of clothinga nd so is John Rochas and Antonio Marras, a guy i found Marc Bihan Khaki Vietnam jackets over tulle and kick boots the GENIUS of my stylist Panos, wich is acknowledged by one and all, HES a magician and his aesthetic is amazing he has said no to every cleb rity and he only has beena fter me anmd someone else, i amn so honoured by our deepening friendshipa nd the energy he puts into me and getting me calibrated correctly again in this world and how much awe and respect people have for him as they should - i forgetthe exact addreses just look at his editorials i did rthe other day i think he shoudl design= its called Intrepid it must be .co.uk or agency...im not surre but lookat his imagination and your in for such a treat he really is a poet.
i adore and worship at the altar of Dame Westwood,a dn we had the funniest discussion too, sh etells me this story of some disscusion we had when iwas just begginig to get "out sick"
apparently i asked Dame Vivienne for a guitar designed by her , now i cannot recall this discussion but it was mor ethan embarssing that we spoke fo rsonething like 2 hours accoriding to her-= i remember talkingt to someone about the things she sai dwe discussed= but my god- i worship her- and felt so retarded that ic ouldnt recall these hour son the phone with her!
all in all a very glorious loveley evening a ball in london
Lords and Lasdiesw and Princesses and it was alla glow and a twinkle very un rock n roll excptthe kid whop ia cidently made wise with =- iw as so puzzled but upon refelction i think he was far more nervous to be in that company than m e - im very confortab le in that environement- its good clean people with alot going on and alot to give and its a posotive c reative environment especially ifyour meeting such cool people , ogh i could go on but my fat little feet seem to fit some kind of glass slipper occasionally - im mor ethan fortunate to be able to have fantastical adventures like this-
and dear darling people who are leaders and see me for me and dont buy into that other nonsense- even though idont think anyone is treated quite so off kilter a si am - this stream of noize about me drinking or trashing rooms etc-= its just nonsense and all these people have gone thru it themselv es and if they havent they just dont give a shit, so itw as jiust a golden Ball and i had a fantastic evening thanks to the Genius of Riccardo and my God My God the way this man desigsn his positivity and enthusiasm and dazzlinggenius- Hubert Givenchy is happy on the other side ,,,,,,,that is for sure.
well the suns up im so inspired i have Tarantinos mad beuatiful stream of cosnscoiuness running through my head...... talk about a maverick....... it gave me great ideas to see allthese shrines to the sartorial arts anmd i recomend this exhibition highly.....( also Bluebell- you wont look back!)
love blession g happiness to all
what i learned today:
sometime syou gotta just suck up the crud atthe bottom of the barrel or you winthave the opportunity fo rthe cream at the top of your coffee.
love
call me Miz Love Baby!
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Saturday, September 15, 2007
thanks
Current mood: amused
thanks for all that support i really dont google myself hardly ever as for PR i have the best best best , but with no record he cant and shouldnt stamp out every dumb blog or nonsense bloid thing its alwyas bvest to never complaina and never explain and i guess i do a little of both while im in such a holding pattern but back back back to the studio the L:AST time weve just got one rocker to put on here and micko and me made up a magical little songa nde my nme writer friend has 2 guys for me to take these songs to both who uhnderstand the folk form - i could write ocean rain or i dunno an earlier u2 song in my sl;eep cos thats when and who i learned s ongwriting from Northern UK and Irish guys in the 80s is when i started l,earning how to write ive kept up with things pretty well - i mean in terms of guitar; Jack Whotes fairly innov ative and ive grown to understand Kid A and its relevance wich actually didnt grab me right away allthose years ago it came out-= Yeah ima good actor and i actually am a great dresser if they just would get off myass, but they dont, so i just ignore em, and wirth Panos pushing me into new directions sartorially it resonates with me musically the V and A Couture exhibition is Tuesday and my English fave Todd Lynn is tomorrow youllsee me in alot of his stuff it gives me a Bowie feeling when i wear him, as for the V and A im going with Ricardo who is runnin g/designing Givenchy and I getr ot weaR Couture again yummmy yummy - i know exactly the dress iw ant from the couture too- its a retrosp[ective3 of Couture - this is as the labour intensive work for the ( possible probable) cd cover is happening, then i have a few days to jam with my kids just for the hell of it, just jam i think as a band,
and then go to Paris an dthen back here and then back to the ballroom in la.
Well i wish i had had 6 kids but i havent done , it aint over yet , but itll have to wait til this cd tour and the film im doing are in the bag done and over - ive got a few years yet and that pictur epissed me off as itw ould anyone cos of what it al;l;uded to, im my Ob GYNs favourite patient, just genes i guess lotsa longevity and all the stiuff that goes with it- doenst meaN I wont get hit by a bus today but i wish i had had a brood, i feel i would have been far more protected- and if they turned out even half as good as my kid, id be in heaven,
great hair straight as a fabulois social life and turns down film after film and multi million dollar designer campaigns= good on her- my little genius- the proof is in the pudding is all i can say = i raised that kid not some random n annies, and despite what the bloids say or do i live my life accroding to strict and true convictions and values,
is it totally paranoid to think that acertain freak of nature
back of the herd who just hops rides on the rest of us has an obsessed freakishly homely and nasty as it gets PA who is hopelessly in love with her freak boss and somehow shes just connected with him to this endless line of nonsense from winehouse to shazza to over 60 paps and only one photo came out an dtheyve painted my mouth? Obsessed people get really wierd and do obsessive crazy things ive been and wil continue to be this year on the recieving end of this runts obsession with me and you betchya emit -all i do believe in instant karma
like you do THIS and BAM it hits ya, but i did nothing i should not have done and certainly i had no cynical motives whatsoever, itw as just as the scientlogists put it when you check somneones "stats" and theyc ome up "sp" sci or not
its common sense to avoid somneone into stuff that is over the common sense line and will end up with death, of someone. thats like 2 plus 2 equals 4 stuff i certainlydidnt say a word about winehouse and iwas on the beach in malibu less than a montha go and went up to the Osbourne house and theres nothing negeative between me and shazza til she pulled this nonsense out its like somneone is stirring up shit on purpose and it aint the karmic gods i can tellyou that, i know what imn talking about and whom .- but shed have to be on me 24/7 top pullthis line of crap followingme off- oh wait she has no life....so its tres possible.
woman ifyour reading this pleas etake the guy= run of!
f express your true feelings stop[ pretending to be a "PA" and leave us all alone, christ how many times do i have to say it? Shall i demon..... strate? instead of using tabloid connections to allude i have some std with retouching!~ if i did ,wich i dont ,theres only one filthy embarassing gutter ive been in where those things thrive love. ahhhh poor pa , in love with her er
"boss" is on just some krazed kooky kampaign to get me and its just harder and harder,coz what is there to get? no drugs, discreet sex and quietly finishing thsi rock n roll.... well theres not much to nail me with , so just create stuff and yes thank you i am a rockstar and i AM allowed to wear freaky contacts for dress up even if it looks wier dthe next day at l,east i had fun.
anyway im well looked after
couldnt be better looked asfter= cds ar epractical;ly obsolete so thsoe of us still playing now and in 2 years
yall should applaude cos we sure as fuck aint in it for the cash.......in 2 years cds willbe 8 track level old tech.
cant wait fort Todd Lynn tonight Again theguys a cutter and whata cutter, i do love a good cut, gracious living is something ive always needed and a good cut has alwaYs beena pure part of that, im gonna go for a run in the park i think now, if i can finb my horrible New Balance shoes talk about unglam.
But man they do function better than any Nike for running and exercising they just do tough on Nike, and its nice they send me cute stuff somnetimes butthe shoes for real working out? its New Balance sorry , they just bloody work.
Wonder what Covent Garden is like this early>? hmmm. spray on some bluebell and go stretch and then chant see ya all laters.
i may be paranopid about the crazy obsessed PA - but its a few too many conikidinks for me to think that someones not being obsessive and pruposely not creating chaos and it just means i need to chant longer and withmore cvonviction to bringthe force of the universe into recalibration and alignment and put others before my self and alleviate misery where i can and bring joy where i can.
and alwaYS create value in all that we all do right?
.
i was so flattered today that Tony Wilson the Factory guy had in his last wishes a thinghe wanted me to do in October -= it was heart rendering as i only met him 3 times, If i have my paradigm polished an dthe absouloute release date i willcertainly do it and it was just beyond flattering,it was also funny.
oh my almost out of Bluebell dont have time to go to Liberty......damm i do love it here!
Bluebell! who thinks of that1 AHHH but the British! so gorge! Lapsang and a run and a chant and ill be right as rain ......AND IMPEnATRABLE cos the music always comes first Th ebest armour there is actually, nop tal;iusman is better than a true hearted good song.
xxx cl
thanks for all that support i really dont google myself hardly ever as for PR i have the best best best , but with no record he cant and shouldnt stamp out every dumb blog or nonsense bloid thing its alwyas bvest to never complaina and never explain and i guess i do a little of both while im in such a holding pattern but back back back to the studio the L:AST time weve just got one rocker to put on here and micko and me made up a magical little songa nde my nme writer friend has 2 guys for me to take these songs to both who uhnderstand the folk form - i could write ocean rain or i dunno an earlier u2 song in my sl;eep cos thats when and who i learned s ongwriting from Northern UK and Irish guys in the 80s is when i started l,earning how to write ive kept up with things pretty well - i mean in terms of guitar; Jack Whotes fairly innov ative and ive grown to understand Kid A and its relevance wich actually didnt grab me right away allthose years ago it came out-= Yeah ima good actor and i actually am a great dresser if they just would get off myass, but they dont, so i just ignore em, and wirth Panos pushing me into new directions sartorially it resonates with me musically the V and A Couture exhibition is Tuesday and my English fave Todd Lynn is tomorrow youllsee me in alot of his stuff it gives me a Bowie feeling when i wear him, as for the V and A im going with Ricardo who is runnin g/designing Givenchy and I getr ot weaR Couture again yummmy yummy - i know exactly the dress iw ant from the couture too- its a retrosp[ective3 of Couture - this is as the labour intensive work for the ( possible probable) cd cover is happening, then i have a few days to jam with my kids just for the hell of it, just jam i think as a band,
and then go to Paris an dthen back here and then back to the ballroom in la.
Well i wish i had had 6 kids but i havent done , it aint over yet , but itll have to wait til this cd tour and the film im doing are in the bag done and over - ive got a few years yet and that pictur epissed me off as itw ould anyone cos of what it al;l;uded to, im my Ob GYNs favourite patient, just genes i guess lotsa longevity and all the stiuff that goes with it- doenst meaN I wont get hit by a bus today but i wish i had had a brood, i feel i would have been far more protected- and if they turned out even half as good as my kid, id be in heaven,
great hair straight as a fabulois social life and turns down film after film and multi million dollar designer campaigns= good on her- my little genius- the proof is in the pudding is all i can say = i raised that kid not some random n annies, and despite what the bloids say or do i live my life accroding to strict and true convictions and values,
is it totally paranoid to think that acertain freak of nature
back of the herd who just hops rides on the rest of us has an obsessed freakishly homely and nasty as it gets PA who is hopelessly in love with her freak boss and somehow shes just connected with him to this endless line of nonsense from winehouse to shazza to over 60 paps and only one photo came out an dtheyve painted my mouth? Obsessed people get really wierd and do obsessive crazy things ive been and wil continue to be this year on the recieving end of this runts obsession with me and you betchya emit -all i do believe in instant karma
like you do THIS and BAM it hits ya, but i did nothing i should not have done and certainly i had no cynical motives whatsoever, itw as just as the scientlogists put it when you check somneones "stats" and theyc ome up "sp" sci or not
its common sense to avoid somneone into stuff that is over the common sense line and will end up with death, of someone. thats like 2 plus 2 equals 4 stuff i certainlydidnt say a word about winehouse and iwas on the beach in malibu less than a montha go and went up to the Osbourne house and theres nothing negeative between me and shazza til she pulled this nonsense out its like somneone is stirring up shit on purpose and it aint the karmic gods i can tellyou that, i know what imn talking about and whom .- but shed have to be on me 24/7 top pullthis line of crap followingme off- oh wait she has no life....so its tres possible.
woman ifyour reading this pleas etake the guy= run of!
f express your true feelings stop[ pretending to be a "PA" and leave us all alone, christ how many times do i have to say it? Shall i demon..... strate? instead of using tabloid connections to allude i have some std with retouching!~ if i did ,wich i dont ,theres only one filthy embarassing gutter ive been in where those things thrive love. ahhhh poor pa , in love with her er
"boss" is on just some krazed kooky kampaign to get me and its just harder and harder,coz what is there to get? no drugs, discreet sex and quietly finishing thsi rock n roll.... well theres not much to nail me with , so just create stuff and yes thank you i am a rockstar and i AM allowed to wear freaky contacts for dress up even if it looks wier dthe next day at l,east i had fun.
anyway im well looked after
couldnt be better looked asfter= cds ar epractical;ly obsolete so thsoe of us still playing now and in 2 years
yall should applaude cos we sure as fuck aint in it for the cash.......in 2 years cds willbe 8 track level old tech.
cant wait fort Todd Lynn tonight Again theguys a cutter and whata cutter, i do love a good cut, gracious living is something ive always needed and a good cut has alwaYs beena pure part of that, im gonna go for a run in the park i think now, if i can finb my horrible New Balance shoes talk about unglam.
But man they do function better than any Nike for running and exercising they just do tough on Nike, and its nice they send me cute stuff somnetimes butthe shoes for real working out? its New Balance sorry , they just bloody work.
Wonder what Covent Garden is like this early>? hmmm. spray on some bluebell and go stretch and then chant see ya all laters.
i may be paranopid about the crazy obsessed PA - but its a few too many conikidinks for me to think that someones not being obsessive and pruposely not creating chaos and it just means i need to chant longer and withmore cvonviction to bringthe force of the universe into recalibration and alignment and put others before my self and alleviate misery where i can and bring joy where i can.
and alwaYS create value in all that we all do right?
.
i was so flattered today that Tony Wilson the Factory guy had in his last wishes a thinghe wanted me to do in October -= it was heart rendering as i only met him 3 times, If i have my paradigm polished an dthe absouloute release date i willcertainly do it and it was just beyond flattering,it was also funny.
oh my almost out of Bluebell dont have time to go to Liberty......damm i do love it here!
Bluebell! who thinks of that1 AHHH but the British! so gorge! Lapsang and a run and a chant and ill be right as rain ......AND IMPEnATRABLE cos the music always comes first Th ebest armour there is actually, nop tal;iusman is better than a true hearted good song.
xxx cl
Friday, September 14, 2007
i keep throwing ’The Secret"at the wall!
Current mood: dirty
ummm......dont explain and dont complain right?shut up take yr p[ain and play that guitar right? see the Hubris the lies the inanity and stay still nom atter what they call you
STAY UNCOMPROMISED INNOCENT AND NOT BITTER AND NEVER JADED
i loathe the dammed Secret i keeop reading it anyway. chant dammit. oh justtwhazt stop a bad negative thought? theres a LAw of the universe a LAW. and for an effect you must first make a cause not WISH for one!
every single time you/ me uses our power our talent for money for sex for "impressions" for yet another discussion on BRANDING we are WHORES.
I JUST WANT TO DO MY JOB I MAY HAVE GONE TO A C LUB DANCED WITH KATE AND WORN THE SAME PERFUME A MIST OF PEHAGLIONS BLUEBELL AND DANCED WITH LITTLE LILY AND HER BESPOKE HAT FROM HAYMARKET AND ASKED KELLY OZ WTF HER MOTHERS PROBLEM IS! HELLO ! IF SOMEONE GAVE MY MINOR CHILD DRUGS ID KICK THIER DAMMED ASS I WOULDNT USE SOME NONSENSE LIE THAT WAS GOING AROUND IN 2000 BTW COS MY BROTHER WROTE SOME EXPOSE AND IM TOOSCARED OF MADGE AND ELTON SO IM GONNA HITA SOFT TARGET no comment.
ended up in front of i dunno 100 paparaazzi with my band kids n we stayed up til 9 am just writing cos that i can do;
write and man oh man oh man oh man it is so fucking beautiful to be able to have people with a totally different perspectives and cultural backgrounds to lean on -ive been in soooo much pain soo hurt
had to stare at a box - knowing its a blessing that the irs audited me for some particulars years, and the reaLIty of pure evil -= hit me over the fucking head and i could not move i was ina shimmering death mist i had to move for a while get my ass over here play music get on some airplanes.
Things done to my child for spite, spite pure spite to a 9 yr old. to kurts sister who has never gone to college and just wants to have her little farm and her horses his mother who justw ants to garden an d make things pretty, and they killed my heart -they tried really really hard but karma doesnt stop anywehere it doersnt stop in Palm Springs or Maui or Los Angeles it keeps going like a bullet whizzing thru the air so they will get what is thiers.
i willnot go onstage unless im p[repared to leave my guts on the thing and this record comes out when its good and bloody ready and my personal problems wich are vast - well they are all there- like dirty diamonds on the record i havent edited a thing from my fucked up twisted heart wich i try like hell to fix by chanting everyday and when iwas laying all twisted up in bed afterthe profiler/psych/forensic tried to explainthe nature of pure evil -= after living rosemarys baby = seeing a credit card witha whacky name or brand new luxury car or the lamp i saw on portobello road that i could not afford - and it dissapearing .......noone will know can know what that gaslighting was like it drove me mad and itwas always designedx to.
My religion states that my environment is a direct consequecne of the causes that i make or have made perhaps in another lifetime,sonething went really wrong, somethings go really good too, but all i know is that all that matters is that right now i have bloody stumps for fingers cos i dont have a pick not one and all i need to do i NEED to do is let it go, is walk away, breathe it out,do this shoot with Panos ( fucking genius) Ypianis and Sam(fucking genius) Taylor Wood maybe go record demos at i dont kno wthe cheapo places
just toerag cos it got so hyped by white stripes= its easy to you know homage white stripes=i have one its just came i only have one chord tho- its an e minor duhhhh i think it needs an old strat and some folkie lyrics witha few double enterndres MAYBE and midran ge for days no bass no treble bu tthe vibrato way the hell up, like an old Curtis Mayfield record-
maybe illtake a dance claSS - no way will i ever do much more without a guitar cept hang up[side down on a pole, i dont mind being too fat or too thin or out of 100s of paparazzi shots they seem to retouch one or two to mak emy lips look all chapped, or maybe they were - i just know i have to write the NEVER COMPROMISING TRUTH. and stick with it and i have one dammed job and i have enough people that get me and care for me and ,love me. an dethats all that matters and karma doesnt stop in Maui or LA or LONDON or Gloucester or Belsize- but this photo is very work intensive, and then in our bluebelll mist last night my dance partrner tells me about how sam is doing alot of chinese s and m rope photos and im intrigued but i sketched what the shoten zenjin/ forces of the universe put
into myhead and gave me a vision, and im gonna get a tattoo over that shitty old angel = prellle the oldest fabric companyt in the world in Lyon makes a yard of fabric pre day has 250 years of sketches and loom patterns and they have one Thistle- le Thiste- its beautiful
i dunna think i have even a DROPLET of scottish in me but the pricks and thebeauty of thistles have been captivating me for the last three years, and although getting this dammed cheapassed tat removed took forever and bloody well HURT im ready to get Le Thiste on my back i want Le Thiste everything and bluebells and whomever lives in P{ortland or Eugene you get one thing ( othe rthan Myrtle on the the 101 wich is only grown in Israel outside of Florence Canon Beach Devils Punchbowl etc) in late March and Early April called Daphne, and my god i can smell it now its just makes me happy to recall the smell, smells are fun and i love them, smells and textures and building textiles, wich im gonna do this year id like to see next week or so what the French made for Spring = whyd oes fashion matter to music? i dont know......theres some connection and its fairly deep = i dont mean luxury brands with the perfume with its 1200% markup fantasy that allows someone whod rather have a luxury brand perfume than a song, sometime if something smells really really good or is truly beautififul; i like it too, i just dont like thinking about the factt hat 40,000 children die of starvation every single day and 750 million people live far far below the povertty line and since ww2 theres been 200 wars some stillbeing fought. notleast the war in america of convienice over indivuality- like anyone or more than anyone im frail fragile and fucking dainty as a porcelain teacup- a hothouse orchid a white lotus i cant grow unless i have the right conditions. evil isnt one of them.
truth, and my curiouisty about life and about all of you gets the best of me= i make a terrible celebrity i know this- but i do i do ido leave my guts on the stage and despite the commodiftication of my words and melodies and i dont kno wthata growly girl is to everyones taste and i dont care atall.....b ut i believe despite our fantastical humaness and ability for enlightenment and human revolution we are HERD ANIMALS.Yes we have leaders Innovators "early adapters" and all that bullshit -but we follow the leader....like gazelles.
but it comes down to texture to music sometimes to taste( Lauderay Chestnut Macaroon) or Smell ( Young Living White Angelica wich btw does have white lotus rooit oil and blue tansyamongst other rareities) same brand sandlewood, joy, red cedar, acquah vitahs larch. young living Myrhh and Galbamum Penhaglions Bluebell, Fracas , WQestwood Boudoir and Carnal Flower ) and clothing i went to coco le mer yesterday and i had to have a pair of about 1930 panties ....i hope we are not herd animals but more and more science says we are.
i have to go write a rock song now. enough of tastes and smells and textures gossipy nonsense and fishy subject changing almost to an overwhelming point.
sound is all that matters. all is word , all is sonic.allis TRUTH, and nothing else matters.
ummm......dont explain and dont complain right?shut up take yr p[ain and play that guitar right? see the Hubris the lies the inanity and stay still nom atter what they call you
STAY UNCOMPROMISED INNOCENT AND NOT BITTER AND NEVER JADED
i loathe the dammed Secret i keeop reading it anyway. chant dammit. oh justtwhazt stop a bad negative thought? theres a LAw of the universe a LAW. and for an effect you must first make a cause not WISH for one!
every single time you/ me uses our power our talent for money for sex for "impressions" for yet another discussion on BRANDING we are WHORES.
I JUST WANT TO DO MY JOB I MAY HAVE GONE TO A C LUB DANCED WITH KATE AND WORN THE SAME PERFUME A MIST OF PEHAGLIONS BLUEBELL AND DANCED WITH LITTLE LILY AND HER BESPOKE HAT FROM HAYMARKET AND ASKED KELLY OZ WTF HER MOTHERS PROBLEM IS! HELLO ! IF SOMEONE GAVE MY MINOR CHILD DRUGS ID KICK THIER DAMMED ASS I WOULDNT USE SOME NONSENSE LIE THAT WAS GOING AROUND IN 2000 BTW COS MY BROTHER WROTE SOME EXPOSE AND IM TOOSCARED OF MADGE AND ELTON SO IM GONNA HITA SOFT TARGET no comment.
ended up in front of i dunno 100 paparaazzi with my band kids n we stayed up til 9 am just writing cos that i can do;
write and man oh man oh man oh man it is so fucking beautiful to be able to have people with a totally different perspectives and cultural backgrounds to lean on -ive been in soooo much pain soo hurt
had to stare at a box - knowing its a blessing that the irs audited me for some particulars years, and the reaLIty of pure evil -= hit me over the fucking head and i could not move i was ina shimmering death mist i had to move for a while get my ass over here play music get on some airplanes.
Things done to my child for spite, spite pure spite to a 9 yr old. to kurts sister who has never gone to college and just wants to have her little farm and her horses his mother who justw ants to garden an d make things pretty, and they killed my heart -they tried really really hard but karma doesnt stop anywehere it doersnt stop in Palm Springs or Maui or Los Angeles it keeps going like a bullet whizzing thru the air so they will get what is thiers.
i willnot go onstage unless im p[repared to leave my guts on the thing and this record comes out when its good and bloody ready and my personal problems wich are vast - well they are all there- like dirty diamonds on the record i havent edited a thing from my fucked up twisted heart wich i try like hell to fix by chanting everyday and when iwas laying all twisted up in bed afterthe profiler/psych/forensic tried to explainthe nature of pure evil -= after living rosemarys baby = seeing a credit card witha whacky name or brand new luxury car or the lamp i saw on portobello road that i could not afford - and it dissapearing .......noone will know can know what that gaslighting was like it drove me mad and itwas always designedx to.
My religion states that my environment is a direct consequecne of the causes that i make or have made perhaps in another lifetime,sonething went really wrong, somethings go really good too, but all i know is that all that matters is that right now i have bloody stumps for fingers cos i dont have a pick not one and all i need to do i NEED to do is let it go, is walk away, breathe it out,do this shoot with Panos ( fucking genius) Ypianis and Sam(fucking genius) Taylor Wood maybe go record demos at i dont kno wthe cheapo places
just toerag cos it got so hyped by white stripes= its easy to you know homage white stripes=i have one its just came i only have one chord tho- its an e minor duhhhh i think it needs an old strat and some folkie lyrics witha few double enterndres MAYBE and midran ge for days no bass no treble bu tthe vibrato way the hell up, like an old Curtis Mayfield record-
maybe illtake a dance claSS - no way will i ever do much more without a guitar cept hang up[side down on a pole, i dont mind being too fat or too thin or out of 100s of paparazzi shots they seem to retouch one or two to mak emy lips look all chapped, or maybe they were - i just know i have to write the NEVER COMPROMISING TRUTH. and stick with it and i have one dammed job and i have enough people that get me and care for me and ,love me. an dethats all that matters and karma doesnt stop in Maui or LA or LONDON or Gloucester or Belsize- but this photo is very work intensive, and then in our bluebelll mist last night my dance partrner tells me about how sam is doing alot of chinese s and m rope photos and im intrigued but i sketched what the shoten zenjin/ forces of the universe put
into myhead and gave me a vision, and im gonna get a tattoo over that shitty old angel = prellle the oldest fabric companyt in the world in Lyon makes a yard of fabric pre day has 250 years of sketches and loom patterns and they have one Thistle- le Thiste- its beautiful
i dunna think i have even a DROPLET of scottish in me but the pricks and thebeauty of thistles have been captivating me for the last three years, and although getting this dammed cheapassed tat removed took forever and bloody well HURT im ready to get Le Thiste on my back i want Le Thiste everything and bluebells and whomever lives in P{ortland or Eugene you get one thing ( othe rthan Myrtle on the the 101 wich is only grown in Israel outside of Florence Canon Beach Devils Punchbowl etc) in late March and Early April called Daphne, and my god i can smell it now its just makes me happy to recall the smell, smells are fun and i love them, smells and textures and building textiles, wich im gonna do this year id like to see next week or so what the French made for Spring = whyd oes fashion matter to music? i dont know......theres some connection and its fairly deep = i dont mean luxury brands with the perfume with its 1200% markup fantasy that allows someone whod rather have a luxury brand perfume than a song, sometime if something smells really really good or is truly beautififul; i like it too, i just dont like thinking about the factt hat 40,000 children die of starvation every single day and 750 million people live far far below the povertty line and since ww2 theres been 200 wars some stillbeing fought. notleast the war in america of convienice over indivuality- like anyone or more than anyone im frail fragile and fucking dainty as a porcelain teacup- a hothouse orchid a white lotus i cant grow unless i have the right conditions. evil isnt one of them.
truth, and my curiouisty about life and about all of you gets the best of me= i make a terrible celebrity i know this- but i do i do ido leave my guts on the stage and despite the commodiftication of my words and melodies and i dont kno wthata growly girl is to everyones taste and i dont care atall.....b ut i believe despite our fantastical humaness and ability for enlightenment and human revolution we are HERD ANIMALS.Yes we have leaders Innovators "early adapters" and all that bullshit -but we follow the leader....like gazelles.
but it comes down to texture to music sometimes to taste( Lauderay Chestnut Macaroon) or Smell ( Young Living White Angelica wich btw does have white lotus rooit oil and blue tansyamongst other rareities) same brand sandlewood, joy, red cedar, acquah vitahs larch. young living Myrhh and Galbamum Penhaglions Bluebell, Fracas , WQestwood Boudoir and Carnal Flower ) and clothing i went to coco le mer yesterday and i had to have a pair of about 1930 panties ....i hope we are not herd animals but more and more science says we are.
i have to go write a rock song now. enough of tastes and smells and textures gossipy nonsense and fishy subject changing almost to an overwhelming point.
sound is all that matters. all is word , all is sonic.allis TRUTH, and nothing else matters.
retouched pap shots. liars. fishy stories and evil.
Current mood: angry
you know how sometimes your lipstick gets wonky? wellthats THAT,. its pretty vile they retouch my mouth to make it look crazy wierd and like a cartoon.
sorry that mouth does not exist in this or any other room ive been in
-
BUT i just got a bunch of weird /freaky /cool crazy stuff from Japan
including wierd contact lenses
and theyve been sorta fun to run around in
but they photograph wierd so i dont think i like em anymore-=
its like when they make your cellulite ( wich i actually do not have ) ten times worse with retouching
anyway i had my Manson moment with my contacts the end.
over it.
sharon knows thats NONSENSICAL but she was too cowardly to pick on Elton who shes apparently vicious about behind his back . Ive never heard this then again we dont... hang .
Desperation or someone on a kamikaze mission- ?
..hmmmmm?
.
and Madge who she must just be scared of-=she just avoided that one. hmmmm. the plot thins.
love the kids.
Love Kelly love Jack
love the dad,
hell i even thought her and i were fine
but she m ustve been sooooo scared and desperate to pull that one outta her butt, cos its just so insane
Thous shalt not bear false witness. ESPECIALLY ABOUT CHILDREN! i Feel sorry for her that she resorted to such abusive lies
. I hope she learns a little more about karma. bless. Sorry but,when it comes to kids i just cannot no comment.
I feel alot pf compassion for someone that desperate whow ould resort to such insanity.
i sincerely hope she gets well soon and stops playing with peoples lives.
you know how sometimes your lipstick gets wonky? wellthats THAT,. its pretty vile they retouch my mouth to make it look crazy wierd and like a cartoon.
sorry that mouth does not exist in this or any other room ive been in
-
BUT i just got a bunch of weird /freaky /cool crazy stuff from Japan
including wierd contact lenses
and theyve been sorta fun to run around in
but they photograph wierd so i dont think i like em anymore-=
its like when they make your cellulite ( wich i actually do not have ) ten times worse with retouching
anyway i had my Manson moment with my contacts the end.
over it.
sharon knows thats NONSENSICAL but she was too cowardly to pick on Elton who shes apparently vicious about behind his back . Ive never heard this then again we dont... hang .
Desperation or someone on a kamikaze mission- ?
..hmmmmm?
.
and Madge who she must just be scared of-=she just avoided that one. hmmmm. the plot thins.
love the kids.
Love Kelly love Jack
love the dad,
hell i even thought her and i were fine
but she m ustve been sooooo scared and desperate to pull that one outta her butt, cos its just so insane
Thous shalt not bear false witness. ESPECIALLY ABOUT CHILDREN! i Feel sorry for her that she resorted to such abusive lies
. I hope she learns a little more about karma. bless. Sorry but,when it comes to kids i just cannot no comment.
I feel alot pf compassion for someone that desperate whow ould resort to such insanity.
i sincerely hope she gets well soon and stops playing with peoples lives.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
oooh im frail
Current mood: determined
i di N interview woith whAT SEMNED LIKE A VERY NICE lady at usa today about Posting- w chatted an awful long time and i feel very very stressed when i cant remnember all that ive said
i try so hard to be a good gitl- i know i named dropped an awful lot -it just sort of happens peip;le who inspire m ate mty frins whatnot come up never ina na insulting way e cptteh bizarr accindeal "quote" in a tab.... talkd about princess Ai bing in th paper [ im in this space ralking to rhis v ictims of crime psychiatrist whjre ive begun resharing the tale with people without even knowing im doing it an late ae night now i start to think really bad thoughts, wellll shit you wannted an honest post im giving you one, in the old days in 94 after my husband had died about 2 months later i started posting on my site abnd i had this whol elittel galaxy to those of you too youn g there was a time no t only without an intertrnet buyt there was this thing called aol- it was the forst tim mostr of us punters lsitemnd an you could get your mil here and i usd to c all him Steve Lower case to remove stuff ididnt like
he was cool h would come to loolapalooza and came to a hole show once, it was if you wre fampus just a bulleutin board about yours;f i love these social networks cos abybody can be "famous " within them for thier g raphics --- CRAUGS LIST MOMET I NED TWO DESIGNERS- ANYONE FROPM THE STANFORD DESIGN SCHOOL IS WAY WELCOME-= NBUT AT MAJOR L;ABEL;S WE GET GRAPHIC DESGNERS AND IM FDOIBGTHINGD A LITTLE DIFFERENT- ID LIKE A GRAPHIC DEOGNER TO GO TO ABOUT FONTS AND ICONS AN SYMBOLS AND ETC AND IF LIKE A SESIGN SHCOOL PERSON TO STARTTHINKINGABVOUT EVERYTHING FROM HOWE TO CHALLENGE A CD JEWEL BOX MERCH FROM ROCJ SHOWS YER AVRAGE TSHIRT COTTON PANTIRES THING BOULEVARDIER WILL OPEN AN ACCT NAMED CLMYSPACE2@GMAIL.COM TOMORROW OF HE HASNT ALREADY XSEND ANY INFO THERE OKAY?:
an for music sorry hste to interup[y one thing 2 things actually id oput on craigs list well 4 things0= anyone from Otis? anyone wanna be a seamtress on an amazing new line with amazing one of a kind crazy italian an d french and london and somne china bought fabrics and notions -
input also welcomep- know your leavers lace from mouuseline- and know how to order a bag be made in a chines factory= w wont be making things in china = i can tell miles away -= by the way other then the Dekkers lingerie wich is the most exciting original lingerie i ve evr ever seen donrt go expecting agent p= marlene dekkers is her name i think? shes dutch = stacy dashes great line is called Letters of marque- its all silk cotton victoriana, www.lettersofmarque.com. its afforDable an dthe oppoite of ekkers lang in his prime- uber femme- its basically my entire former stage wear = leavrs lace is the lace we see on victorian whites- its made of cotton and stacy told me there are about 100 looms in the world left- sh based here ntire c ollection on a victoriasn co,mbing jacket i hav several
i didnbt know ie was called a combing jacket- and im a little aarrogant hubristic even about my fabric an d trims and i believe i need to spend a wek watchinga lacroix and a gaultier couture show= with lacroix i once even bought a lacroix jacket in the s outh of france- i never got the clothes but ten years of couture collectionz mags im starting to understand how important they are- why theres so much of these horriifc wasted fabric so beuatiful anfd so ouutragously expebnsive shaped ina terrible cosevarvative vrsace on iotd worse day meets prom dress for mom - god what iw ouldnt give for dome of thse notions and buttond sna laces and silkns and new metallic textiles and organioc v oiles and orgsnoc tulle-= im amking that up ther isnt any yet- the dress im wearing on th pic ture opposite is th first Never trhe bride ress Clares Pattern for the m ost part= but i had asked for sleves and shirring-= its very epnsive victorian lace and we took it off but arounf the empire band ( my huge ribs) is a belt with studs we didnt second guess the studs craze of giles and robertpo ( givenchy) in gold or this prossums fall studs- i mean what afantasy= going to london next sunay an gett he punk stufdded platforms ehe punk studded purse and the 10000s of punk studs on the trench. o think a brad be it or a prson thin g object has to hav a few rules- you nees to kno wthe statitics of the innovaters an dthe early adopters of youve got a new idea say for indatanc i put aside the past wich is gutting me like a searing hot knife making m glad i dont have firearms in th house,. womndering if maybe i should take some sort of anti depressent - but it goes away as soon as i put the books away thw crazy cooked ones- theresw so muc h i have to do- becaus eothrwise ther will be wil goose cghases an my credibility must be impeccable- names i dont know of for 4 years this girl i could not =stand got a paycheck from me- then theres pretend peop;e and cash delivris your not dupposed to notice, from courier services i never hard of with stements like"BACK DDOOR BELL ONLY" in october 02 theres on day qhebn im at oct 02 ( im nopt in the country by the way) theres not onlya 4 milliuon ollar loan in the moriniung but theres cash dekivery, none in 000s, in ehings like 6589, all under 10k, i dunno all in on delivery isntther that tak,ingf out ov rten k in cash topo much law? jus whne i got to about 995k in cash delivere to my house in one day im so sad and i turn thr page and it goes ovr a million 1.198,643.88 cents oct2, 03. i have to do this, AND youllundrtsand why in a few mnonths but it removs me from the present and makes m crashingly depressed, and all tyhat i have on my fvuture an don my present a few things
i could make 10x this amount if i could letthis go - seriously- truly let it go= karma doesnt stop atthe shores of maui and la county line- or antelope valley ( nopt much unincoprtated in calif- but that one is) the fbi has a list of the top ten states where mnotgrga fraud occurs the most- and it resonats teh way ateh 7 princ ipals of a good brand resonate- in terms of wire transfers ive seen and mortggeags and loans whos social securty numnberd were all those people? deceased? probably- id call in my loft aND maybe ONE out of 20 calls was helpful t
and oh poor me yeah i liost it all- im no t lookinfg for pity - i drank the kool aid- but if ate in omn ot an the gove an anuthorities turn on YOU instead of going after this heinous thing wich has so says the forensics psychiatruist driven you mad- or even a police depratment to write upa report that all ones tvs are gone, becaus one is sucha n object of d3rision at that point
far more was stolen out of my kis trust han has been put back and i called them an dthey refiused to help-= well well get to them= well see whT THEY O WITH them, and each of these b mgrs sign a contrract that ihey willl under no cricumstanxcs sign fpr anything pmlu i will sign ONLY I SIGN fo rthings always s broken mor anfr more aggressively ONE DUDE IN O3 within a fw days was braking the contract, but worse he saw what washappening an he just walkd away claimning iwas toomnuch of a mess to deal with- the shrink says " anyone would be a mess- you must stop blaming yourself
" and triu to get me to say the word victim again and again, in my religion ( Nichirin Buddhism) we are our envrionments and everything that happens to us is our responsiobility, its our karma , an w musrt own it= okay i amn the victim of a series of heinous vicious an technically psychotic crimes- bizarre and frocious ive never seen human evil like this- well ive sedn it in someone seyes and moral bhaviour but uh....that was ovrly covered this week, in Nuy case i was felling bl;ue i nee only get them two files from two agmncies and one ocument and icant do tht myseld and finishthese lesged anx timem yself so i dont start feling sucideal thoughts wich aooremnytly is vry common too after these crimes - i mean put 1650 crimes ina basket and call it crime. anywqay so yeah i need a mentor someone who has designedd and wantsto look at my sketches- help me figure out wether to go liuxury and both - i love juicy as a model and i lovethos e girls esp pam- and i love hedi but he probably doesnthavethe time-
i need som ehelp with lyrics - any lyrics will b sentto tyler first an if us3 them you will get a publishing fee- if youfeel more comfy copytighting beofre snding them to cl myspac 2 gmail thats cool too go from im not lookinto the eyes of a alading man
someone who can really tak command
- the topics arroganc pomposity th dream of beinga lading man willnever evr happen and no it has nothingto o with this week anyone following me knows leading man applis to may a dude= arroganc pomnposity people who enjoy preying on othrs inferiority- inspire me stiuck to some rhymes- an i have to think of a brilliant small c horus it was karma fades it never goes away- butthats weak- anywone who i use inthis willhav free tix to any show i play for lfe as wllas publishing, ihavr a pattern cuttr and a program firector i n3 somone who really knows iimnpirt export- posssibly has been pt premiere visionare fabric show before is up on textiles the new japense mill tyextiles and mostly someon whose an eprt n hosiery on how w chang the patterns on the looms cost? theres loons i think at jantzeen i saw an oprah where 42 people had touch one pair of spanx befor eproduced and if you know about txtile mills how they c an do "couture: bodysuits tighs" an things out of lingeore lace- this i need to knbow= an you knwo yopur all outthere obvuiously sone o fthis is chat an som o fthis will b consulation paid and some of this will be onsite work in la paid, also anyone with extensive contacts in the cosmentic communuty who wantsto mentor or isucss with e the many monsters who lauch th stilas an the tartes and the scott barns aan skincare- these ar all thingsid go to class for but allyouex perts pout there......lets interface. iahev some great ideas. a;so in la theres alather guyw ith th ebest skins where c an i fins this guy? fdowntown? iwant oft gloveskin but cool patterns.
alos one mor ewor on the grat dekkers stiuff check it out and letters of marque.com yopullsethe collection ots sexy anc affordable a letter of marque mant if you wre a pirate aN YOU HAD A LETTER OF MARQUE YOU WER ALLOWED BY TEH COUNTRY WHO HAD GOVEN YLOU TH ELETTER OF MArqu roto plunfer an dpillage. IN MY CAS NBO I INT SIGN NO DAMMED LETTE ROF MARQUE BUT AS I TOLd THE USA TOday lady karen yes sometime sit is theraputic. to post ( oh ill be in ny for fashion week anyone eligeble fo rthe last list cosmtics textiles ifyou wanna meet an dyou know your shit and costs etc so ican putthat into mny buseinss plan) ( im not even talking about prffume!~ noons gonnz buy a prfriume b y me presently n o mattr if it was better than fracs!)
I was uber sark sprssed, i mean not reaady for th hospital biut sharing wiuth you all, iwas really sad gutted about this money stuff it dod dickand knwoinfg i may meet someone who we can change each other s lives graphic deosigner design designer- etc- hosiry an lingrie fabric person= catsuits too- im exite and i hope your out there i o ned a graphic designer, soneone who lovs for fonts.
is anyone the massiv3 fan of sam taylor wood as i am?
okay my kis on th treadmill- i think someons feeling good about high school.
i need to sleep some. i feel alot better.;
as for winehouse thats so fishy- its liek someone trying to changetheh sibject by a ccysing me of something i know nothing abouyt never sai an nevr would hav said- lie i said my philosphy on sex rugs and rock n roll is if youc a- have fun- ifyouc ant try at last 90 days not 28 at rehab and 90 80 12 steo neetings if it taaks reasing the secret fir mne to dragyour asses to the gohonzon nam myoho remge kyo that babty is the sceret.
Shout out to Miyo coo! you rule some o fthe goth lolly is nuts but its art i love it i just know with suzuki who iw anna wear to ny fashion week rthe shoulders and ribs needd to be widened alot- ivgain..ed a fw pounds im stillthin just not a stick and are we okay with the hair? i love it, thanks at courtney love.com for allteh constuctive c opmments about the darker blonde hair and also the bob was fun bit ive ammed well dopne the bob now. gonna watch reruns of big love, an d thin k about my hbo day weds i think- dont worry the records on track just mixing we gottarecord trashy dirty girsd anf one more carc rash possibly amaybe another one an i haveto rcord leadng man and last will an testament and can you mnak me cry.
nam myoho renge kyo
lov to aall
courtney
i di N interview woith whAT SEMNED LIKE A VERY NICE lady at usa today about Posting- w chatted an awful long time and i feel very very stressed when i cant remnember all that ive said
i try so hard to be a good gitl- i know i named dropped an awful lot -it just sort of happens peip;le who inspire m ate mty frins whatnot come up never ina na insulting way e cptteh bizarr accindeal "quote" in a tab.... talkd about princess Ai bing in th paper [ im in this space ralking to rhis v ictims of crime psychiatrist whjre ive begun resharing the tale with people without even knowing im doing it an late ae night now i start to think really bad thoughts, wellll shit you wannted an honest post im giving you one, in the old days in 94 after my husband had died about 2 months later i started posting on my site abnd i had this whol elittel galaxy to those of you too youn g there was a time no t only without an intertrnet buyt there was this thing called aol- it was the forst tim mostr of us punters lsitemnd an you could get your mil here and i usd to c all him Steve Lower case to remove stuff ididnt like
he was cool h would come to loolapalooza and came to a hole show once, it was if you wre fampus just a bulleutin board about yours;f i love these social networks cos abybody can be "famous " within them for thier g raphics --- CRAUGS LIST MOMET I NED TWO DESIGNERS- ANYONE FROPM THE STANFORD DESIGN SCHOOL IS WAY WELCOME-= NBUT AT MAJOR L;ABEL;S WE GET GRAPHIC DESGNERS AND IM FDOIBGTHINGD A LITTLE DIFFERENT- ID LIKE A GRAPHIC DEOGNER TO GO TO ABOUT FONTS AND ICONS AN SYMBOLS AND ETC AND IF LIKE A SESIGN SHCOOL PERSON TO STARTTHINKINGABVOUT EVERYTHING FROM HOWE TO CHALLENGE A CD JEWEL BOX MERCH FROM ROCJ SHOWS YER AVRAGE TSHIRT COTTON PANTIRES THING BOULEVARDIER WILL OPEN AN ACCT NAMED CLMYSPACE2@GMAIL.COM TOMORROW OF HE HASNT ALREADY XSEND ANY INFO THERE OKAY?:
an for music sorry hste to interup[y one thing 2 things actually id oput on craigs list well 4 things0= anyone from Otis? anyone wanna be a seamtress on an amazing new line with amazing one of a kind crazy italian an d french and london and somne china bought fabrics and notions -
input also welcomep- know your leavers lace from mouuseline- and know how to order a bag be made in a chines factory= w wont be making things in china = i can tell miles away -= by the way other then the Dekkers lingerie wich is the most exciting original lingerie i ve evr ever seen donrt go expecting agent p= marlene dekkers is her name i think? shes dutch = stacy dashes great line is called Letters of marque- its all silk cotton victoriana, www.lettersofmarque.com. its afforDable an dthe oppoite of ekkers lang in his prime- uber femme- its basically my entire former stage wear = leavrs lace is the lace we see on victorian whites- its made of cotton and stacy told me there are about 100 looms in the world left- sh based here ntire c ollection on a victoriasn co,mbing jacket i hav several
i didnbt know ie was called a combing jacket- and im a little aarrogant hubristic even about my fabric an d trims and i believe i need to spend a wek watchinga lacroix and a gaultier couture show= with lacroix i once even bought a lacroix jacket in the s outh of france- i never got the clothes but ten years of couture collectionz mags im starting to understand how important they are- why theres so much of these horriifc wasted fabric so beuatiful anfd so ouutragously expebnsive shaped ina terrible cosevarvative vrsace on iotd worse day meets prom dress for mom - god what iw ouldnt give for dome of thse notions and buttond sna laces and silkns and new metallic textiles and organioc v oiles and orgsnoc tulle-= im amking that up ther isnt any yet- the dress im wearing on th pic ture opposite is th first Never trhe bride ress Clares Pattern for the m ost part= but i had asked for sleves and shirring-= its very epnsive victorian lace and we took it off but arounf the empire band ( my huge ribs) is a belt with studs we didnt second guess the studs craze of giles and robertpo ( givenchy) in gold or this prossums fall studs- i mean what afantasy= going to london next sunay an gett he punk stufdded platforms ehe punk studded purse and the 10000s of punk studs on the trench. o think a brad be it or a prson thin g object has to hav a few rules- you nees to kno wthe statitics of the innovaters an dthe early adopters of youve got a new idea say for indatanc i put aside the past wich is gutting me like a searing hot knife making m glad i dont have firearms in th house,. womndering if maybe i should take some sort of anti depressent - but it goes away as soon as i put the books away thw crazy cooked ones- theresw so muc h i have to do- becaus eothrwise ther will be wil goose cghases an my credibility must be impeccable- names i dont know of for 4 years this girl i could not =stand got a paycheck from me- then theres pretend peop;e and cash delivris your not dupposed to notice, from courier services i never hard of with stements like"BACK DDOOR BELL ONLY" in october 02 theres on day qhebn im at oct 02 ( im nopt in the country by the way) theres not onlya 4 milliuon ollar loan in the moriniung but theres cash dekivery, none in 000s, in ehings like 6589, all under 10k, i dunno all in on delivery isntther that tak,ingf out ov rten k in cash topo much law? jus whne i got to about 995k in cash delivere to my house in one day im so sad and i turn thr page and it goes ovr a million 1.198,643.88 cents oct2, 03. i have to do this, AND youllundrtsand why in a few mnonths but it removs me from the present and makes m crashingly depressed, and all tyhat i have on my fvuture an don my present a few things
i could make 10x this amount if i could letthis go - seriously- truly let it go= karma doesnt stop atthe shores of maui and la county line- or antelope valley ( nopt much unincoprtated in calif- but that one is) the fbi has a list of the top ten states where mnotgrga fraud occurs the most- and it resonats teh way ateh 7 princ ipals of a good brand resonate- in terms of wire transfers ive seen and mortggeags and loans whos social securty numnberd were all those people? deceased? probably- id call in my loft aND maybe ONE out of 20 calls was helpful t
and oh poor me yeah i liost it all- im no t lookinfg for pity - i drank the kool aid- but if ate in omn ot an the gove an anuthorities turn on YOU instead of going after this heinous thing wich has so says the forensics psychiatruist driven you mad- or even a police depratment to write upa report that all ones tvs are gone, becaus one is sucha n object of d3rision at that point
far more was stolen out of my kis trust han has been put back and i called them an dthey refiused to help-= well well get to them= well see whT THEY O WITH them, and each of these b mgrs sign a contrract that ihey willl under no cricumstanxcs sign fpr anything pmlu i will sign ONLY I SIGN fo rthings always s broken mor anfr more aggressively ONE DUDE IN O3 within a fw days was braking the contract, but worse he saw what washappening an he just walkd away claimning iwas toomnuch of a mess to deal with- the shrink says " anyone would be a mess- you must stop blaming yourself
" and triu to get me to say the word victim again and again, in my religion ( Nichirin Buddhism) we are our envrionments and everything that happens to us is our responsiobility, its our karma , an w musrt own it= okay i amn the victim of a series of heinous vicious an technically psychotic crimes- bizarre and frocious ive never seen human evil like this- well ive sedn it in someone seyes and moral bhaviour but uh....that was ovrly covered this week, in Nuy case i was felling bl;ue i nee only get them two files from two agmncies and one ocument and icant do tht myseld and finishthese lesged anx timem yself so i dont start feling sucideal thoughts wich aooremnytly is vry common too after these crimes - i mean put 1650 crimes ina basket and call it crime. anywqay so yeah i need a mentor someone who has designedd and wantsto look at my sketches- help me figure out wether to go liuxury and both - i love juicy as a model and i lovethos e girls esp pam- and i love hedi but he probably doesnthavethe time-
i need som ehelp with lyrics - any lyrics will b sentto tyler first an if us3 them you will get a publishing fee- if youfeel more comfy copytighting beofre snding them to cl myspac 2 gmail thats cool too go from im not lookinto the eyes of a alading man
someone who can really tak command
- the topics arroganc pomposity th dream of beinga lading man willnever evr happen and no it has nothingto o with this week anyone following me knows leading man applis to may a dude= arroganc pomnposity people who enjoy preying on othrs inferiority- inspire me stiuck to some rhymes- an i have to think of a brilliant small c horus it was karma fades it never goes away- butthats weak- anywone who i use inthis willhav free tix to any show i play for lfe as wllas publishing, ihavr a pattern cuttr and a program firector i n3 somone who really knows iimnpirt export- posssibly has been pt premiere visionare fabric show before is up on textiles the new japense mill tyextiles and mostly someon whose an eprt n hosiery on how w chang the patterns on the looms cost? theres loons i think at jantzeen i saw an oprah where 42 people had touch one pair of spanx befor eproduced and if you know about txtile mills how they c an do "couture: bodysuits tighs" an things out of lingeore lace- this i need to knbow= an you knwo yopur all outthere obvuiously sone o fthis is chat an som o fthis will b consulation paid and some of this will be onsite work in la paid, also anyone with extensive contacts in the cosmentic communuty who wantsto mentor or isucss with e the many monsters who lauch th stilas an the tartes and the scott barns aan skincare- these ar all thingsid go to class for but allyouex perts pout there......lets interface. iahev some great ideas. a;so in la theres alather guyw ith th ebest skins where c an i fins this guy? fdowntown? iwant oft gloveskin but cool patterns.
alos one mor ewor on the grat dekkers stiuff check it out and letters of marque.com yopullsethe collection ots sexy anc affordable a letter of marque mant if you wre a pirate aN YOU HAD A LETTER OF MARQUE YOU WER ALLOWED BY TEH COUNTRY WHO HAD GOVEN YLOU TH ELETTER OF MArqu roto plunfer an dpillage. IN MY CAS NBO I INT SIGN NO DAMMED LETTE ROF MARQUE BUT AS I TOLd THE USA TOday lady karen yes sometime sit is theraputic. to post ( oh ill be in ny for fashion week anyone eligeble fo rthe last list cosmtics textiles ifyou wanna meet an dyou know your shit and costs etc so ican putthat into mny buseinss plan) ( im not even talking about prffume!~ noons gonnz buy a prfriume b y me presently n o mattr if it was better than fracs!)
I was uber sark sprssed, i mean not reaady for th hospital biut sharing wiuth you all, iwas really sad gutted about this money stuff it dod dickand knwoinfg i may meet someone who we can change each other s lives graphic deosigner design designer- etc- hosiry an lingrie fabric person= catsuits too- im exite and i hope your out there i o ned a graphic designer, soneone who lovs for fonts.
is anyone the massiv3 fan of sam taylor wood as i am?
okay my kis on th treadmill- i think someons feeling good about high school.
i need to sleep some. i feel alot better.;
as for winehouse thats so fishy- its liek someone trying to changetheh sibject by a ccysing me of something i know nothing abouyt never sai an nevr would hav said- lie i said my philosphy on sex rugs and rock n roll is if youc a- have fun- ifyouc ant try at last 90 days not 28 at rehab and 90 80 12 steo neetings if it taaks reasing the secret fir mne to dragyour asses to the gohonzon nam myoho remge kyo that babty is the sceret.
Shout out to Miyo coo! you rule some o fthe goth lolly is nuts but its art i love it i just know with suzuki who iw anna wear to ny fashion week rthe shoulders and ribs needd to be widened alot- ivgain..ed a fw pounds im stillthin just not a stick and are we okay with the hair? i love it, thanks at courtney love.com for allteh constuctive c opmments about the darker blonde hair and also the bob was fun bit ive ammed well dopne the bob now. gonna watch reruns of big love, an d thin k about my hbo day weds i think- dont worry the records on track just mixing we gottarecord trashy dirty girsd anf one more carc rash possibly amaybe another one an i haveto rcord leadng man and last will an testament and can you mnak me cry.
nam myoho renge kyo
lov to aall
courtney
Saturday, September 1, 2007
winehouse? wtf? i dont ven know her!
what is this shit? i have never in my life spoken on amys problems afflcitions or anything els3 i spnt on very pleasant evning with her for about jhalf an hour. its nonsense. whos making this shit up? is this some sort of rvenge for getting goaded nto a quote last week abouyt someone else who i havd had aq prsonally ngativ expoirience with? i dont know anything about amys personal life, nor woul di say anything. nor have i.
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