but why did i have my bnervous breakdown>? i look back on it on it now and it seems so stupid ,it was over a stupid dude and he did bad things and has terrifically bhuge massive issues and frances hates him. im just embarassed and im glad i found out that certain people cannot be saved in time, it did help me thru the record but then as soon as it was done my unconscious went into survival mode and went”you twat you cannot possibly think igts relistic to hang out with that guy in real life”. okay enough of my personal life i have to go and then o have ot practice songs and iw ish i still had meds because they “regulated my moods” and macde me less nervous. and im all anxious about russelll he gave m e sooooooo much work to do, but i love work so its good.
night
cork
ps as far as being”obsessed” with the onternet i dont have a google alert and i wAnt this site to grow and to be a psotove place i can blog like i said i went there to that othe rplac e the once and it was for th emst part innocent good people and then just a bunch of people who have me confuysed with a chubby nicole ritche or something.
just venal and nasty and anythin g else to do with it i hear from staff i dont have an account and am unable tyo log in to that site. nor would i want to. i happened to be around someone who for practical purposes had an account, there was alot of copyright violation and plain slander and its been turned over to Howard ( my lawyer) at this point.