malibu was wri=tten on piano after the forst versipn ( origian;lly wrtten for stevie nicks) was on guitar, and billys gettong m,ad cos im not talking about hiom enough and then theres the surreal life world of the publishing splits, im not giving publishing for a part i didnt use, he can get reallyw eird about piublishiong,
publishing works like this in a tsandard real world
chords and melody 50% lyrics 50% , SOME people have doscovered thats not specidfically the “law” even though its the only way anyones ever done it, and have decioded that, a say bridge is 60% of the ENTIRE song.
so thats a bit of an issue but im gossiping.
back to the meth head, hey you guys were just talking about her not me.
oops.
im insaley offended by this 90 day chip business, i take aa very very seriously i take tyhe 12 steps very very seriouslya nd ive NEVER seen such a CRASS usage of such a wionderful prgram used as a PR stunt, im infuriated and althoughw e share management if i see teh culprit i shall confront her and tell he3r to take that fucking chip off til she gets 90 days, and big whoop if she gets photgrpahed at an aa meeting, berats another noght at hyde, wich is the size of my bedroom, no mysetry there.
jiust lots of activity inthe bathroom.
im reallyreazlly pissed Aout thios aa nonsense and i did an interview with cnn where i didnt hide it at all,
has she accepted her life has become unmangaebale?
(eg humility, accepting that youa re bnot more special rthan anyone else)
have you givernm your life over ot a hugher power?
have you dont your fourth step?
ohw ait youdont know what a fourth step is,
im hardly beong cynical, i just know a lie when i see a lie especially n acommunity where theres only three provate meetings and three high end ones. noones seen this person.
i work my program hard, i take an inventory of myself daily and im not a sporutal maverick or perfecrt bya ny means,but i havent had a relapse. an dthaTS BECAUSE I USE THE PRGRAM ANDS THE STEPS IVE MADE MY AMENDS AND I PRACTIC E THE 12TH STEOP WICH IS HELPING OTHER ADDICTS, trying to help this one proved to be impossible, i cant be ina room with giant lines of blow out, actaully these days i c an but then iw as weak and i got sweaty and nauseous and had to leave.
anyway hope im totally wrong but 90 days? my ass 90 days. i wont get into how i know or what i know thi sisnt a gossip site but i am personally offended, this is someone i do like an dwant to help but to use the program mAkes me very very angry, maybe it wasnt her idea. Hyde at 2 am is no place ot be in your first week of sobriety if thats even a reality.
hate to sound like a gossip im just so pissed off.
maybe i should keep my trap shut,k but i take sobriety so fuckings eriously, having been around drugs alot this year, and avpiuded a relapse having had a nervous breakdown over whats it the dickhead who im stillfriends with but he is a dickhead, and choosing to overeat in stead i got so close tho , iwas readty to go downt own and of my friends hadnt literally sat on me phsycially id be inreal trouble right now.
i called my sponsors as i have a few, and made it through but i just wanted to get into bed and take hadfulls of pills and drown out my shattered illusion of this person as a moral good man. anyway im waaaaay off topic.
i live in a world of eating disorders bulemia smoking meth and crack and nostop cocaine half of my neoghbopurhood or something addicted to benzos and percocets, and i miss my wine, just that little biut once a week, but thats about all i miss i live in aworld of such narcissism its undiagnosable and yet IM crazy? New York Magazine hates my guts, they consistdenly and always write terrible nasty shitty things about me, always have always will but credit where its due, theres an article ( go the http://www.newyorkmagazine.com ) called the summer they allwent mad, wich has pics of me and russellcrowe in strait jackets, thery have a pretty well done article based on factual studies i think its the university of Fla not exaACTLY A BASTION OF hiugher learning int her Yale sense of the word, but the study is on the physicological and psychologal ill effects of celebrity. eg celebrities have a 33% higher chance of dying in a hospital due to the surgeon with the biggest ego not the most quaklified demanding to work on the celebrity,an 85% chance of dying ten years earlier than an overweight lower class american unhealthy couple, read the piece its fucking fascinating, and the mentally ill parts fascinating, i wouldn t put too much stock in a u of Fla curriculum but its pretty fascinatingreading, the shit on nearcissism is great, they name me as the nuttiest of the celebs wich is actually untrue, im neither bipolar or manic depressive, i have adhd pretty much obviosuly, but that is with a lot of confidence, depending in my self loathing thast day , it basically states the earlier you get famous the more fucked up ayou are, i was 25 ,k and had a solid life behind me befvore i had fame, unfortunately my famne cAme witha horrible price, it was attached to a male, something i nnever ever expected, and shocked me and hurt me to my core, i seriously didnt think that wouldnt be much of a factor and i see now with these 16 year ild blogger boys who then become 22 and get sensible and knock it off, allthis nirvamna this an dnirvana that i was shocked and very upset b y womens hour inth euk its so prestigious and i thought a feminist show she dodntaskj one question about ME i recall it was kurt kurt kurt kurt, to where it started to actually make me cry and i got upset, i share kurt stuff but not all nort will i ever, but eve4rytime i say a word abotu the guy its a fucking massivce google alert, theres another study at Penn State this professor has publisjhed more articles on suicide than any other academic, ancd hes teaching a course on the positive meritrs of artists comitting suicide using Kurtt as a model, google it, its fucking disgusting, how because he died early he never had to haver a “mediocre” pahse how i benefitted hoew dave grohlk MORE than me benefoited ( and lordy aint that the truth for once) but its still despicable.
he qalso without researchin g taxes, the factual reality or frances cut went off on kurts financial abilities as a person no longer here, citing crazy sums of money trhat i cant imagine having.
im the one who shops at fucking top shop. cos a harvey nicks trip wouldve made my biz manager pissed and also im not as rich as people think i am. 51% taxes in cALIfornia i stillhave alot alot alot of work to do to brong home the bacon.
anyway if you have interest ineithe rof these studies,k as isiad got the new york mnagazine site and search for me youllget a ton of negative hits, or try the summer tehya llwent mad, its actually a good article and for the penn state it may be just univeristy of pennsylvania, i copuld have it wrong, but its stillfucked up beyond belief……..id love to heAr comnments aBOUT THESE TWO CIURRICULEMNS THEY ARE BEING taught in university c ourses imsure they are crowded as hell imreally interested in the way the new york mag one talks about how the narcissim is so intense its past doiagtnosis and possible into psychosis( im paraphrasing)
okay wellthTS ALOT off my chest, ididnt mean to bash ms 90 day chip as imfriends wigth her inthe way you measure light nighttime friendship in hollywood, but i dont buy the little girl lost thing, i think as long as she looks hot and is skinny she wont get in any trouble or got to rehab, and ibterventions have beenstaged but everyone seems to pull out becausetheyre scared of being fired, this is a case if this person dies and she is jkillingherself and unlike me shes not biga nd hearty, itll be on alot of peoples conscious for beong wusses about intervening.
getting 90 days is very very very hard by the way,k i had to go away to get a real 90 days with 12 steps thrown in, doing yoga and playing guitar and doing stepwork everyday,.
iwish nothingbut psitivity and love for this person, iwant her to gety well not get introuble, noone should bemade an example of or have to go through wehat iwent through, even ifg i do have a residual very smallamount of bittermness for the fact that iwwas the one withte x on my head and yet i was teh victim of a 20 million dollar scam wich happened because i am controversial thsi scam began long beforei staerted doing hard drugs or even light drugs, but i was a mouthy loud controversial read vulnerable rock star whose very polemic- the bank officer who helped do this sdaw this and helped to crreat over a hundred accounts shifflingf monety around etc. it was afucking nightmare and itll never happen again, no matter fucking what , but i demand accountability for those who were involved, there was a kittyradio amex i didnt knowe about witha 758,000 dollar amount of charges on it, it wa spribably the crazy bf, but the webmnistress over there knows SOMETHING, i just wiosh shed tell me,. maybe shell tellthe fbi if they ever get to her, i dont think shes a criminal but i do know sxhe knows stuff and maybe she doesznt knoew what she knwos details that sxhe doesnt thoink matter, i dont know she wongt tell me she justtells me how loyal shes always been to me(!) domnt want to gett he rat spary out for the kr folks cos i dont wantthem over here unless theyd like to stop going over there, but well get our shit together soon and thisll be a very cool site, with extra tracks for thos e registered here, and forums, etc.okay wellobviously i had too muc h of my favourite drug coffee.
io hear big loud sloppy chords fromthe hellop kitty guitar upstairs. i need to go gove a few lessons.
thanks fo rletting me rant!!!!!
corkscrew