hey web designers!

Current mood: busy

hey
im mad crazy working working working
suze orman always says pay yourself first - what is YOUR hourly rate?
i decided mine is 1500 dollars , because it evens out- forensics, legal and accounting suck upa massive amount of my time- research and development ( listening to m,usci making music ) is free ( althogh should be tax deductible) ( ahnd in fact is witha good person doing taxes alas that is not my case due to circumstances WITHIN my c ontrol and will be cdeal with)
i got my monthly budget and ibndeciding to follow in acordance with niormal lAWS of economy - for every dollar i spend i save 2, ive gone to different florist and cut my order ibn half at wholesale- and ma letting go of anyone whom i am not HAPPY to sign thier checks- wbho dont invoice me regularly and who dont show me or my family the respect we deserve by working 100 % and by producing results
had a lovely evening with Ricardo Tisci tonight and love him- SOOOOOOO much- i have a new fave Givenchy dress, Couture , worn under a fur at the Couture , its genius, it was sucha relief toget away from the stack of bills and perusing things- eg former assts using my amex having a huge phone billdue to former emplyees using my t mobile, 40.95 cents i tunes that are off itunes and pages and pages of it and a 23 an d 22 percent amex and visa rate! eat me@!
my fico is great its bogus bit its great- so how the hell am i getting 23 percent on MY own BANKS visa! thats insanity! bye bye amex fix it or im out!
im pissy so i shouldnt be blogging- slacking off a bit in chanting- but protecting myassets and fam ily is teh objective of this post.
ME. Kurt and Nirvana alll need a great software designer to help jason t and superman run this cluster of sites- loads of merch so loads of money and loads of design acumen- so far jason has been the best ive ever had at rendering whar i like and want and my scanner is fucked up so i havent sent him my latest images or pantone mixtures, i have dsoe3m amazing fonts and graphics and footage i wanna put up.....all taht channell 4 uk hours and hours of extrA FOOTAge, i have this 20 mninutes of kurt talking in his old man voice being hialrious on a cassette i found just funnycool things

xespite my enormous liking for my design company they have not stepped up for me- and teh cluster is totally interereallated my site is cdullas dirt as much as i love those who are members of it and will totally be trhere for them tickets wise and seats wise on tour-= but if im to do thisfree site its gonna cost abourt 150 or 2 bucks to get ona nd it had better be worth it= arta nd loads of songs wich im giving both but i cant move rthe art an d i cant make a website look like my space wich is what everyone expects froma websute now= theres millions in merchandise involved in this so it cannot juist be anyone off the street= write to jason t and tell him/me about yourself if you ior yoru comapny wnats to design an easy peasy amazinfg triplet of sites and can improve upon the radiohead paradigm and also can keep metuclous records and cvan prove it and are willing to be subjected to a background check- a serious one- in teh sense that if youve ever ripped anyone off- dont come around! okay?
but loads of great people are on my space- and webiste designers- todays your lucky day unless my company steps it waaaay up i mean like yesterday= its nothing personal but im slashing my budget by 3/4 that means if noones willing to reallyt outthe time and effort in then im going to have to say au revoir to them- if im n ot happy to sign their checks or they overcharge me for the things i really need to make this succesful then i can no longer afford them in my life , ive c ut back massively onclothes and getting a new second hand car, why the hell not, and going without extranbous legal and changing up and freeing my time from accounting forensic accounting and crazy deals i willregret for the rest of my life- i have only myself to decalre "Now i will stand up for my family" and with that determination and commitment even to stand alone and fight the biggest uphill battle pissing lots of people off c os the NOW me has read some substantially significant financial books about what efficent people do for your dollar and what they sure as hell do NOT do , this is the only way to VICTORY, i need to stop texting so much i neecd to put my health and creative life first and make one line texts
Chanting to my Gohonzon is the biggest text to the universe i can send and as the ad so brilliantly goes= JUST DO IT. believe i deserve the best not just desire it and get pissed, i have a meeting tomorrow and believe you me im brin ging my a game- actions speak far far louder than words- and i will go by actions from now on and keep a watchful hairy eyeball on my finances- 23 percent? are they insane. lets try for 0.
anwyay i know i sound pissy but anything and anyone who takes advantage of us is against us and thus is no longer welcome in our lives.

i will not be forced into beliveing that 1 plus 1 does not equal 2 lets go back to the beginning of all this and to the people who were there then who [perhaps made mistakes but did not deliberatly create chaos or make trouble on purpose or break the cycle of zero accountibility= i will no longer tolerate this.

i hope you get something out of this.
i hop someone has really great software skills and if perceptive has proof of such and has a rec ord of accountibilty this is your lucky day-= go to the radiohead site think of the endless watys of imporving that story- i have most of these ideas but love how jason takes my ideas and imporves upon or adds to them - and superman= this is your lucky day= for alot of reasons i wont get into in a public blog- but go write jason with sites youve designed and sites you like and think run brillaintly and why your right to run these 3 massive sites plus a few more hugely important ones.........along with jason and my cyber team........m,aybe i shoudl only go to "professionals" And i expect professi.. but im always willing to take a risk as long as the person is qaULified and scrupoulsy honest- i do mean scrupoulsy.

so show us what ya got!

xxc